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MARGARET E. SANGSTER 



THE CHRISTIAN HERALD 

Bible House 

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Copyright. 1919, bt 
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JAN -2 1920 



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To My Father 



NOTE 

Some of the verses in this book have been printed 
by The Christian Herald, Good Housekeeping, Pic- 
torial Review, New Fiction Publishing Company and 
the C. H. Young Publishing Company. I wish to 
acknowledge, with thanks, permission to reprint them. 



CONTENTS 



PAGE 

Preface 11 

Wood Magic 15 

Waterin' the Horses 17 

At Dawn 18 

The Haunted House 21 

To a Pair of Gloves 22 

Peaks 23 

Li'l Feller 24 

To An Old Schoolhouse 25 

The Old Sailor 26 

The River and the Tree 27 

Autumn Song 28 

Scarlet Flowers 30 

On Fifth Avenue 32 

From a City Window 33 

The Lady Across the Court 35 

To A Porcelain Puppy Dog 36 

Colors 37 

Possession (A Tenement Mother Speaks) 38 

Lights of the City 40 

Steel 42 

Music of the Slums 43 

"Be of Good Cheer !" 49 

From My Room 51 

The Balcony Scene 52 

A Bowery Pawn-Shop 53 

Spring in the City 54 

Li'l Empty Closet 56 

Two LULLABYS 57 

I Dreamed Your Face 59 

Answer 61 

A Baby's Hands 62 

All Along the Broad Highway 63 

My Mother 65 

Heredity 66 

April 68 

The Desert Path (Seven Sonnets) 69 

Summer Song 76 

Comprehension (A Mother's Song) 77 



CONTENTS (Continued) 

PAGE 

Singing on the March 78 

Easter 79 

Resurrection 80 

The Queen 81 

Fragments 84 

It's Lots of Fun 85 

Valentine 86 

The Sacrifice 87 

To A Certain Room 89 

Other Days 90 

At Twilight 92 

There Are Such Weary Little Lines 93 

Three Songs of Awakening 94 

In a Canoe 95 

Captive-Heart 96 

Evening Song 97 

After a Day- of Waiting 98 

Intangible 99 

At First Sight 100 

Five Sonnets 101 

Forgiven 106 

The Writing 107 

At Parting 108 

When I Am Old 109 

The Refuge 110 

To Dream Alone Ill 

Now I May Sing of Sadness 112 

When War Came 114 

When You Went By 115 

In Memoriam 116 

A Peasant Girl Sings 117 

Together 118 

Jim-Dog 122 

Six Sonnets 124 

After Peace 130 

From the Deck of a Transport 132 

Tim — My Bunkie 134 

A Prayer for Our Boys Returning 136 

Paris ; 137 

Song From France 147 

From Paris to Chateau-Thierry 148 

A Ruined Church 149 

Child Faces 150 

After Hearing Music Coming From a Devastated 

Farmhouse 151 

Return 152 

The Phoenix 154 

A Prayer on Easter for Our Boys Killed in 

Action 155 

Independence Day, 1919 156 

Shadows 158 

L'envoi 159 



PEEFACE 

The candlelight sweeps softly through the room, 
Filling dim surfaces with golden laughter, 
Touching with mystery each high hung rafter, 

Cutting a path of promise through the gloom. 

Slim little elves dance gently on each taper, 

Wistful, small ghosts steal out of shrouded 

corners — 
And, like a line of vague enchanted mourners, 

Great shadows sway like wind-blown sheets of paper. 

Gently as fingers drawn across your hair, 
I see the yellow flicker of it creep — 
And in a silence that is kin to sleep, 

I feel a world away from pain and care. 

Koads stretch like arms across the world outside. 
Roads reach to strife, to happiness, to fame — 
Here, in the candlelight, I speak your name. 

Here we are at life's cross way, side by side ! 



Oh, there are hrooJcs there, and fields there and nooks 
there — 

Nooks ivhere a seeker may find forest flowers; 
Blue is the sky there, and soft winds creep hy there, 

Singing a song througli the long summer hours. 



WOOD MAGIC 

The woods lay dreaming in a topaz dream, 
And we, who silently roamed hand in hand. 
Were pilgrims in a strange, enchanted land. 

Where life was love, and love was all a-gleam. 

And old remembered songs came back to greet 
Our ears, from other worlds of long ago, 
The worlds that we of earth may seldom know — 

And to those songs we timed our vagrant feet. 

We did not speak, we did not need to say 
The thought that lay so buried in our hearts — 
The thoughts as sweet as springtime rain, that 
starts , 

The buds to blossoming in wistful May. 

We did not need to speak, we could not speak. 
The wonder words that we in silence knew — 
We walked, as very little children do. 

Who feel, but cannot tell, the thing they seek. 

Beyond a screen of bushes, bending low, 
We knew that fair Titania lay at rest. 
Her pillowed head upon her lover's breast. 

Her kisses swift as birds that come and go! 

And underneath a wall of mottled stone. 
We knew the sleeping beauty lay in state. 
Entangled in a mist of tears, to wait 

The prince whose kiss would raise her to a throne. 

Perhaps a witch with single flaming eye. 

Was watching from beneath the hemlock tree; 
And fairies that our gaze might never see, 

Laughed at us as we, hand in hand, crept by. 



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Laughed at us ? No, I somehow think they knew 
That you and I were kin to them that day! 
I think they knew 'that we were years away 

From everything but make-believe, come true. 

I think they knew that, singing through the air, 
There thrilled a vague, insistent, harp-like call — 
And that, where woodbine blazed against the wall, 

You held me close and kissed my wind-tossed hair ! 



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WATEEIN' TH' HOESES 

I took th' horses to th' brook — to water ^em you know, 
Th' air was cold with just a touch o' frost; 

And as we went a-joggin^ down I couldn't help but 
think, 
0' city folk an' all the things they lost. 

0' cause they have their lighted streets — their Great 
White Way an' such, 
0' course they have their buildin's large an' tall; 
But, my ! they never know th' joy o' ridin' ter th' 
brook. 
An' somehow I don't envy 'em at all! 

Perhaps I'd like it — for awhile — to hear th' songs an' 
laughter. 
But somehow, I don't know exactly why; 
I'd feel th' country callin' me; I'd long again fer 
silence. 
An' fer God's mountains, blue against the sky. 

I took th' horses to th' brook — to water 'em you know, 

Th' day was pretty as a day can be ; 
An' as we went a-joggin' down I couldn't help but 
think, 

0' city folk an' all they never see ! 



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AT DAWN 

I. The Caveman 

I live ! And the scarlet sunrise is climbing the 

mountain steep, 
I live . . . And below, in the caverns, the rest 

of my clansmen sleep; 
But I — I am here, and chanting, I could slay a 

beast with my hand, 
And I thrill as the mist of the morning creeps up 

from the rock-strewn land ! 

I live, I have strength for fighting — and courage to 
rend and slay, 

I live ! And my eyes are lifting to gaze at the new- 
born day; 

And I pause, on the way to my hewn-out cave, 
though I know that she waits me there. 

My mate, with her eyes on the scarlet dawn, and the 
wind in her flame-like hair. 

I live — and the joy of living leaps up in my search- 

^ ing eyes, 
I live, and my soul starts forward, to challenge the 

waking skies ! 
Far down are the torrents roaring, far up are the 

clouds, unfurled; 
And I stand on the cliff, exultant, akin to the waking 

world. 

The mists are gone, and an eagle sweeps down from 

the mountain high. 
And I wish that my arms were feathered and strong, 

that I, too, might fly ; 
I live! I am one with the morning! Ah, I am a 

man, and free! 
And I shout aloud, and the scarlet dawn shouts back, 

on the gale, to me ! 

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II. The Pioneer 

I creep along, but silently, 

For, oh, the dawn is coming; 
I creep along, for I have heard 

A flint-tipped arrow, humming; 
And I have heard a snapping twig, 

Above the wind's low laughter; 
And I have known — and thrilled to know, 

That swift they followed after! 

The forest turns from black to grey, 

The leaves are silver-shining; 
But I have heard a far-off call — 

The war-whoop's sullen whining. 
And I have been a naked form. 

Among the tree trunks prowling; 
And I have glimpsed a savage face, 

That faded from me, scowling. 

A rosy color sweeps the sky, 

A vagrant lark is singing. 
But, as I steal along the trail, 

I know that day is bringing 
A host of red-skins in its train. 

Their tommy-hawks are gleaming — 
I see them now; or can it be 

The first pale sunlight beaming? 

I creep along, but stealthily, 

For, oh, the dawn is coming ! 
I creep along — but I have heard 

A flint-tipped arrow, humming. . » c 
And yet, my heart is light, inside. 

My soul, itself, is flying 
To greet the dawn ! I am alive — 

And what is death — hut dying? 



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III. The Farmer 

The dawn is here ! I climb the hill ; 

The earth is young and strangely still; 

A tender green is showing where 

But yesterday my fields were bare. . . . 

I climb and, as I climb, I sing ; 

The dawn is here, and with it — spring ! 

My oxen stamp the ground, and they 
Seem glad, with me, that soon the day 
Will bring new work for us to do ! 
The light above is clear and blue; 
And one great cloud that swirls on high, 
Seems sent from earth to kiss the sky. 

The birds are coming back again. 

They know that soon the golden grain 

Will wave above this fragrant loam; 

The birds, with singing, hasten home; 

And I, who watch them, feel their song 

Deep in my soul, and nothing wrong. 

Or mean or small, can touch my heart. . . 

Down in the vale the smoke-wreaths start. 

To softly curl above the trees; 

The fingers of a vagrant breeze 

Steal tenderly across my hair. 

And toil is fled, and want, and care ! 

The dawn is here ! 

I climb the hill ; 

My very oxen seem to thrill — 

To feel the mystery of day. 

The sun creeps out, and far away 

From man-made law I worship God, 

Who made the light, the cloud, the sod; 

I worship smilingly, and sing ! 
* * * 

The dawn is here, and with it — spring ! 

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THE HAUNTED HOUSE 

It stands neglected, silent, far from the ways of men, 

A lonely little cottage beside a lonely glen; 

And, dreaming there, I saw it when sunset's golden 

rays 
Had touched it with the glory of other, sweeter days. 

They say the house is haunted, and — well, it is, I 

guess. 
For every emptly window just aches with loneliness ; 
With loneliness that tortures and memory that flays ; 
Ah, yes, the house is haunted with ghosts of other 

days. 

The ghost of childish laughter rings on the narrow 

stair, 
And, from a silent corner, the murmur of a prayer 
Steals out, and then a love song, and then a bugle 

call, 
And steps that do not falter along the quiet hall. 

The story of the old house that stands beside the 

glen? 
That story is forgotten by every one; but when 
The house is touched and softened by sunset's golden 

rays, 
I know that 'ghosts must haunt it, the ghosts of 

sweeter days. 



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TO A PAIR OF GLOVES 

•Jus' a little pair o' gloves. 

Sorter thin an' worn; 
With th' fingers neatly darned, 

Like they had been torn. 
Jus' a little pair o' gloves. 

Not s' much ter see. . . . 
Not a soul on earth can guess 

What they mean ter me ! 

Jus' a little pair o' gloves. 

Sorter tossed aside; 
Limp an' quiet, folded up. 
Like their soul had died. 
Every finger seems ter look 

Lonely, an' -my hand 
Trembles as it touches them — 

Who can understand? 

Jus' a little pair o' gloves. 

Ah, she tossed 'em there. . . 
Singin'-like, she turned ter go. 

Didn't have a care! 
Kissin' them ? A prayer, a tear ? 

God, my head will bow — 
Jus' a little pair o' gloves, 

. . . . Emptly, now! 



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PEAKS 

A storm may rage in the world below, 

It may tear great trees apart; 
But here on the mountain top, I know 

That it cannot touch my heart. 

I have struggled up through the lightning's glare, 
I have walked where the cliffs fell sheer 

To a gorge below, but I breathed a prayer, 
And my soul passed doubt and fear! 

Here on the mountain top the air 

Is clear as a silver song; 
And the sun is warm on my unbound hair; 

And what though the way was long ? 

What though the way was steep and bleak. 
And what though the road was hard? 

I stand at last on the mountain peak. 
With my eyes upraised to God ! 

A storm may sweep through the world JdcIow, 

It may rend great rocks apart; 
But here on the crest of the world I know 

That it cannot touch my heart. 



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LIL' FELLER 

When th' sunshine's golden-yeller 

Like th' curls upon his head, 
Then he wakes — th' lil' feller^ — 

An' he jumps up, outen bed; 
An' he scrambles fer his knickers 

Flung, perhaps, upon th' floor, 
An' he takes his hat (my old 'un). 

An' he races through th' door — 
An' I hear his voice, a-singin', 

In his odd, ole-fashioned way, 
'Cause he's glad — th' lil' feller — 

In th' mornin' o' the day. 

Kinder makes me feel, well, lazy, 

So I hurry up, outside. 
Where th' mountains smile down, friendly- 

And th' earth looks sorter wide; 
An' I hear his voice a-callin', 

Sayin', "Daddy, come an' see !" 
An' I find him makin' gardens 

Where a rock pile uster be — 
An' I shout, "How goes it, sonny?'' 

An' my heart feels light an' gay, 
Fer he's singin' — lil' feller — 

In th' mornin' o' th' day. 

Lil' feller, an' his gardens ! 

It don't matter much ter him, 
If th' hoein's hard an' tedgious. 

An' th' crop he grows is slim; 
Fer he loves ter be a-workin'. 

An' he loves ter see things start 
Outer nothin'. . . . There's a garden 

In th' rock-bed o' my heart 
That he's planted, just by singin' 

In his odd, ole-fashioned way — 
'Cause he's glad, my liV feller. 

In th' mornin' o' th' day! 



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TO AN OLD SCHOOLHOUSE 

Down by the end of the lane it stands, 

Where the sumac grows in a crimson thatch, 
Down where the sweet wild berry patch, 

Holds out a lure for eager hands. 

Down at the end of the lane, who knows 

The ghosts that sit at the well-scarred seats, 
When the moon is dark, and the gray sky meets 

With the dawn time light, and a chill wind blows? 

Ghosts— well not ghosts, perhaps, but dreams— 
Eather like wistful shades, that stand 
Waiting a look or an outstretched hand. 
To call them back where the morning gleams- 
Dreams of the hopes we had, that died. 
Dreams of the vivid youth we sold; 
Dreams of a pot of rainbow gold — 
Gold that we sought for, eager-eyed ! 

Dreams of the plans we made, that sleep 
With the lesson books on the dusty rack. 
Of the joyous years that will not come back- 
That are drowned in the tears we have learned to 

weep. 
Ghosts did I call them ! Sweet they are 
As a plant that grows in a desert place, 
Sweet as a dear remembered face — 
Sweet as a pale, courageous star. 

Where the sumac grows in a flaming wall, 
It stands, at the end of a little lane. 
And there do the children come again. 

Answering, still, the bell's shrill call. 

Just as we came, with their songs unsung. 

And their hopes all new, and their dreams dew 

kissed. 
Brave as the sun in a land of mist — 

Just as we came when the world ivas young! 

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THE OLD SAILOR 

I've crossed the bar at last, mates. 

My longest voyage is done; 
And I can sit here, peaceful. 

And watch th* settin' sun 
A-smilin' kind of glad like 

Upon the waves so free. 
My longest voyage is done, mates. 

But oh, the heart of me. 
Is out where sea meets skyline ! 

My longest voyage is done. . . 
But — can I sit, in peace, mates. 

And watch the settin' sun? 

Tor what's a peaceful life, mates. 

When every breeze so free, 
When every gale a-blowin', 

Brings messages to me ? 
And is the sky so shinin', 

For all it's golden sun, 
To one who loves the sea, mates, 

And knows his voyage is done? 
And, can a year on land, mates, 

Match with one day — at sea? 
Ah, every wind a-singin' 

Brings memory to me ! 

I've crossed the bar at last, mates. 

My longest voyage is past, 
And I must watch the sunset. 

Must see it fade, at last. 
My steps are not so light, mates. 

As they were, years ago; 
And sometimes, when I'm tired. 

My head droops kind of low — 
Yet, though I'm old and — weary. 

The waves that dance so free, 
Keep callin' to my soul, mates. 

And thrill the heart of me ! 



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THE EIVER AND THE TREE 

"You are white and tall and swaying," sang the river 
to the tree, 

"And your leaves are touched with silver — but you 
never smile on me ; 

For your branches murmur love songs to the sun- 
kissed turquoise sky. 

And you seem so far above me that I always hurry 
by!" 

"You are laughing in your shallows, you are somber 
in your deeps, 

And below your shining surface there's a heart that 
never sleeps; 

But all day you pass me, dancing, and at evening 
time you dream, 

And I didn't think you liked me/' sang the birch- 
tree to the stream. 

So they got a bit acquainted on a glowing summer 
day, 

And they found they liked each other (which is of- 
tentimes the way) ; 

And the river got so friendly, and it ran so very slow, 

That the birch-tree shone reflected in the water down 
below ! 



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AUTUMN SONG 

Let's go down the road together, you and I, 

Let's go down the road together, 

Through the vivid autumn weather; 
Let's go down the road together when the red leaves 

fly. 

Let's go searching, searching after 
Joy and mirth and love and laughter — 
Let's go down the road together, you and I. 

Let's go hunting for adventure, you and I, 

For the romance we are knowing 

Waits for us, alive and glowing, 
For the romance that has always passed us by. 

Let's have done with tears and sighing. 

What if summer-time is dying? 
Let's go hunting for adventure, you and I. 

Let's go down the road together, you and I — 
. And if you are frightened lest you 

Weary grow, my arms will rest you, 
As we take the road together when the red leaves fly. 

Springtime is the time for mating? 

Ah, a deeper love is waiting 
Down the autumn road that calls us, you and I ! 



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The city — 

Towers and canyons, and slums, 

Man huilt. . . . 

And souls, 
God huilt! 



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SCARLET FLOWERS 

The window box across the street 

Is filled with scarlet flowers; 

They glow, like bits of sunset cloud, 

Across the dragging hours. 

What though the mist be like a shroud 

What though the day be dreary ? 

The window box across the street 

Is warm, and gay, and cheery! 

The window box across the street 

Is filled with scarlet flowers; 

I almost catch their perfume sweet. . . 

Above the sound of tramping feet. 

They sing of country bowers. • 

Against the house that looms so gray. 

They smile in — well, a friendly way. 

A tired shop girl hurries by; 

Their color seems to catch her eye; 

She pauses, starts, and wistfully 

She gazes up. It seems to me 

That I can hear her longing sigh. . . 

A little shop girl hurries by. 

A newsboy stops to sell his wares; 

The crowds brush by him; no one cares 

To buy his papers. But above 

The scarlet flowers bravely grow 

In token of the Father's love. . . . 

The crowds brush coldly by below. 



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A blind man stumbles, groping past; 
He cannot see their scarlet shine; 
And yet some memory seems to twine 
About his soul. 

For, oh, he turns 
As trusting as a child who yearns 
For some vague dream, and smilingly 
He lifts the eyes that cannot see. . , 
A blind man stumbles, groping past. 

The window box across the street 
Is filled with scarlet flowers; 
They tell a secret, tender, sweet. 
Through all the dreary hours. 
And folk who hurry on their way 
Dream of some other brighter day. . 
The window box across the street 
Is filled with scarlet flowers. 



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ON FIFTH AVENUE 

I walked down Fifth Avenue the other day 

(In the languid summertime everybody strolls down 

Fifth Avenue) ; 
And I passed women, dainty in their filmy frocks. 
And much bespatted men with canes. 
And great green busses lumbered past me, 
And impressive limousines, and brisk little '^lectrics. 

I walked down Fifth Avenue the other day, 

And the sunshine smiled at me. 

And something, deep in my heart, burst into song. 

And then, all at once, I saw her — 

A woman with painted lips and rouge-touched 

cheeks — 
Standing in front of a jeweler's window. 
She was looking at diamonds — 
A tray of great blue-white diamonds — 
And I saw a flame leap out of her eyes to meet them 
(Greedy eyes they were, and cold, like too-perfect 

jewels) ; 
And I realized, for the first time. 
That diamonds weren't always pretty. 

And then I saw the other one: 
A thin little girl looking into a florist's shop 
At a fragrant mass of violets, dew-purple and fresh. 
She carried a huge box on her arm. 
And a man, passing, said loudly, 
"I guess somebody's hat'll be late today !" 
And the thin little girl flushed and hurried on, 
But not before I had seen the tenderness in her eyes — 
The tenderness that real women show 
When they look at vast rolling hills, or flowers, or 
very small pink babies. 

I walked down Fifth Avenue the other day. 
(All the world walks, leisurely, down Fifth Avenue 
in the summertime.) 

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FEOM A CITY WINDOW 

The dust is thick on the city street, 

The smoke on the city sky 
Hangs dense and gray at the close of day — 

And the city crowds surge by 
With heavy feet through the summer heat 

Like a sluggish sullen tide; . . . 
But hand in hand through a magic land 

We are wandering side by side. 

For somewhere, dear, there's a magic land 

On the shores of a silver sea; 
And there is a boat with turquoise sails — 

With sails that are wide and free; 
A boat that is whirling through the spray, 

That is coming for you and me ! 

Somewhere, dear, there's a singing breeze 
That creeps through the laughing air 

To the wide-flung boughs of a blue-black tree — 
It touches your joyous hair; 

And the touch of it is as soft and light 
As a baby's lisping prayer. 

Somewhere, dear, there's a bit of beach 

Where the sand is warm and white; 
Where the sky seems close and the drifting clouds 

Are tenderly, warmly bright. 
And there is a ship with turquoise sails, 

With sails like a living light! 

Ah, the ship is bringing us dreams come true, 

And hopes that are all dew-kissed; 
It is bringing us days that are all aglow 

With scarlet and amethyst; . . . 
Bringing us faith to find our way 

Through a world that is wrapped in mist. 

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Our window looks on the city street, 

We can glimpse the city sky; 
But our hearts are gay at the close of day. 

Though the tired crowds pass by 
With heavy feet through the blinding heat, 

Like a sullen, sluggish tide. . . . 
For hand in hand through a magic land 

We are wandering side by side. 



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' THE LADY ACROSS THE COURT 

She only comes when night is near, 

And stands a moment quietly 
Beside her window, in the dusk — 

She lives across the court from me — 
And though I cannot see her eyes 

Because she is too far away, 
I somehow feel that they are kind. 

And very soft, and widely gray ! 

Her hands are only dim white blurs. 

That rest against the window pane; 
And yet I know that they are firm, 

And cool and sweet as April rain. 
And, oh, I cannot help but wish 

As, through the dark, I go to bed. 
That they might rest a moment like 

A little prayer upon my head ! 

She only comes when night is near, 

I do not know who she can be; 
I never see her anywhere 

But just across the court from me. . . 
I am so small the curtains hide 

The wistful smiles that I have smiled, 
And yet I, somehow, think she feels 

The love of me — a lonely child. 



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TO A POECELAIN PUPPY DOG 

Oh, pudgy porcelain puppy dog from far-away Japan, 
I saw you in a shop to-day where lonesomely you 
sat 
Upon a velvet cushion that was colored gold and 
purple, 
Between a bowl of goldfish and a sleeping wooden 
cat. 

I wonder what you thought about as stolidly you sat 
there, 
A grin of faint derision on your pudgy porcelain 
face; 
I wonder if you dreamed about some cherry blossom 
tea house. 
And if the goldfish bored you in their painted 
Chinese case? 

I wonder if you dreamed about the laughter of the 
gieshas 
As languidly they danced across the shining lac- 
quered floor, 
I wonder if your thoughts were with a purple clump 
of iris 
That bloomed, all through the summer, by the 
little tea house door? 

I wonder if you hated us who passed you by un- 
heeding. 
You who had known the temples of another, older 
land? 
And, oh, I wonder if you knew when I had paused 
beside you 
To pat you, porcelain puppy dog, that I could 
understand ? 



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COLORS 

I love color. 

I love flaming reds, 

And vivid greens. 

And royal flaunting purples. 

I love the startled rose of the sun at dawning, 

And the blazing orange of it at twilight. 

I love color. 

I love the drowsy blue of the fringed gentian. 

And the yellow of the goldenrod, 

And the rich russet of the leaves 

That turn at autumn-time. . . . 

I love rainbows. 

And prisms, 

And the tinsel glitter 

Of every shop-window. 

I love color. 

And yet today, 

I saw a brown little bird 

Perched on the dull-gray fence 

Of a weed-filled city yard. 

And as I watched him 

The little bird 

Threw back his head 

Defiantly, almost. 

And sang a song 

That was full of gay ripples. 

And poignant sweetness. 

And half-hidden melody, 

I love color. . . . 

I love crimson, and azure, 

And the glowing purity of white. 

And yet today, 

I saw a living bit of brown, 

A vague oasis on a streak of gray. 

That brought heaven 

Very near to me. 

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POSSESSION 

(A Tenement Mother Speaks) 

Y' ain't as pretty as some babies are — 

But, oh, yer mine ! 

Yer liP fingers sorter seem V twine 

Aroun' my sonl. 

Yer eyes are bright, V me, as any star, 

Yer hair's like gol'. 

Some people say yer hair is sandy-red. 

An' that yer eyes is sorter wan an' pale. 

An' that yer lil' body looks, well, frail. . . . 

Y' ain't been fed 

Like rich folks children are. ... ' 

It takes fresh air 

Ter keep a baby fat an' strong an' pink ! 

It takes more care, 

'N I have time ter give. ... . 

An' yet, if God'll only let yer live — 

When yer first came. 

An' when I seen yer face, deep down inside 
My heart I felt — well, sorter broke an' tore, 
'Cause when yer came ter me I like ter died. 
An' I had lost my job, there at th' store. 
I looked at you, an' oh, it wasn't pride 
I felt, but bitterness an' shame ! 

An' then yer gropin' fingers touched my hand. 

As helpless as a snow-fiake in the air, 

Yer didn't know, yer couldn't understand, 

('Cause yer was new t' this cold-hearted land), 

That life ain't fair ! 

Yer didn't know if I was good, 'r bad, 

'R much ter see — 

Y' only knew that I belonged, an' oh, 

Yer trusted me ! 



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Somehow, right there, I didn't stop ter think 
That yer was white an' thin — instead o' pink, 
An' that yer lips, an' not yer eyes, was blue. . . 
I got t' thinkin' how, when work was through 
I'd sing t' yer, an' rock yer off t' rest. 
I got t' thinkin' that I had been blessed. 
More than th' richest girl I'd ever knew! 
An' oh, I held yer tight against my breast, 
An', lookin' far ahead, I dreamed an' planned 
That I would work th' fingers off my hand 
Fer you ! 

An' mother-love swept on me like a tide, 
An', oh, I cried ! 

Some people say yer hair is sandy-red. 

But they don't know; 

They say yer eyes is sorter pale an' weak. 

But it ain't so ! 

It's jus' because yer never been well fed. 

An' never had a lil' cribby bed ; 

It's jus' because yer never had a peek 

At th' blue sky — 

That's why ! 

Yer ain't so pretty as some babies are, 

But, oh, t' me yer like a silver star 

That, through th' darkest night can smile an' 

shine. . . . 
Yer ain't as pretty as some babies are, 
But, God, yer mine! 



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LIGHTS OP THE CITY 

He was young, 

And his mind 

Was filled with the science of economics 

That he had studied in college. 

And as we talked about the food riots, 

And high prices, 

And jobless men. 

He said: 

"It^s all stupid and wrong, 

"This newspaper talk ! 

"Folk have no business to starve. 

"The price of labor always advances, 

"Proportionally, 

"With the price of food!'' 

"Any man," he said, 

A moment later, 

"Can earn at least two dollars a day 

"By working on a railroad, 

"Or in the street cleaning department! 

^'What if potatoes do cost 

"Eight cents a pound? 

"Wages are high, too. . . . 

"People have no reason to starve/' 

I listened to him prayerfully 

(More or less). 

For I had never been to college. 

And I didn't know much about economics. 



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As I walked to the window, 

And looked out over the veiled, mysterious lights 

Of the city, 

I couldn't help thinking 

Of a little baby 

That I had seen a few days ago; 

A baby of the slums — thin, and joyless. 

And old of face,- 

But with eyes 

Like the eyes of the Christ Child. . . . 

A baby — crying for bread — 

And. ... I wondered. . , • 



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STEEL 

They think that we're just animals, almost. 

We men who work with steel. 

A lady visitor was here th' other day. 

She looked at me, an' I could hear her say, 

"My, what a life ! I s'pose his only boast 

"Is muscles !'' 

She's wrong. We feel 
A certain pride, a certain sort o' joy. 
When some great blazin' mass is tamed an' turned 
Into an engine wheel. Our hands get burned. 
An' sometimes half our hair is scorched away — 
But, well, it's fun ! 

Perhaps you've seen a boy. 
Who did hard work he loved, an' called it play? 
Know what I mean? Well, that's the way we feel. 
We men who work with steel. 

A lady visitor was here th' other day; 
She held her skirts right dainty in her hand. 
An' as she passed me by, I heard her say, 
"I wonder what he thinks — or if his head 
"Is just a piece o' metal, too !" She said 
It laughin'-like. 

She didn't understand. 
She couldn't know that we have dreams as grand. 
As any she could have. We wonder where 
Th' rivets that we make are goin' to. 
An' if th' engine wheels we turn, will go 
Through tropic heat, or if they'll plow through snow ; 
An' as we watch, we sorter grow to carp 
About th' steel. Why it's as shiny blue 
As jew'ls ! An' every bit is, well, a part 
Of life to us. Sometimes my very heart 
Thanks God that I've a man-sized job to do ! 



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MUSIC OF THE SLUMS 

I. The Violin-Maker 

Over a slum his sign swings out. 
Over a street where the city's shout 
Is deadened into a sob of pain — 
Where even joy has a minor strain. 

"Violins made/' read the sign. It swings 
Over a street where sorrow sings; 
Over a street where people give 
Their right to laugh for a chance to live. 

He works* alone with his head bent low 
And all the sorrow and all the woe, 
And all the pride of a banished race, 
Stare from the eyes that light his face. 

But he never sighs and his slender hand. 
Fastens the cat-gut, strand by strand — 
Fastens it tight, but tenderly 
As if he dreams of some melody. 

Some melody of his yesterday. . . . 
Will it, I wonder, find its way 
Out to the world, when fingers creep 
Over the strings that lie asleep? 

Or will the city's misery 
Mould the song in a tragic key — 
Making its sweetest, faintest breath 
Thrill with sorrow, and throb with death? 

Maker of music — who can know 
Where the work of his hand shall go? 
Maybe its slightest phrase will bring. 
Comfort to ease the suffering — 



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Maybe his dreams will have their part 
Buried deep in the music's heart. . . . 
Out of a chain of dreary days, 
Joy may come as some master plays! 

Over a slum his sign hangs out, 
Over a street where dread meets doubt — 
"Violins made,'' reads the sign. It swings 
Over a street where sorrow sings. 



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II. The Park Band 

(Side by side and silent — eagerly they stand — 
Souls look out of tired eyes, hands are clasped 

together. 
Through the thrilling softness of the late spring 
weather, 
All a city slum is out to listen to the band.) 

Young love and May time, hear the joyous strain, 
Listen to a serenade written long ago ! 
You will recognize the song — you who care must 
know 
Fear that blends with happiness, joy that touches 
pain. 

Eabbi with the grizzled beard hear adventure's story ! 
Hear the tale the music tells, thrilling with ro- 
mance. 
Hear the clatter of a sword, hear a broken lance 
Falling from some hero's hand, red with blood- 
stained glory. 

(Tenements on either side, light-flecked in the gloam- 
ing, 
Tenements on either side, stark and tall and gray — • 
Ah, the folk who line your halls wander far away, 

All a crowded city slum is a-gypsie roaming!) 

Woman with the brooding gaze, hear the lilting 
laughter 
Of the children that you loved, feel their soft- 
lipped kisses; 
Think of all the little joys that a hard world 
misses — 
What though bitter loneliness always follows after? 



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Gangster with the shifty eyes, listen to the sighing 
Of the hymn tune that you heard at your mother's 

knee; 
Listen to the restless ghost of the used-to-be, 

Listen to a wistful ghost's empty-hearted crying. 

(Tenements on either side — menacing they stand — 
Light-flecked in the softness of the late spring 

weather. . . . 
But young love and broken life are standing close 
together. 
And all a city slum is out to listen to the band.) 



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III. The Oegan" Man" 

He's very old, his music box is old and rusty, too, 
And half the notes of it are harsh, and half of 
them are slow ; 
One wonders if the coat he wears could ever have 
been new — 
And if the tune he plays was quite forgotten long 
ago. 

He finds a sunny place to stand, and lifts his bleary 
eyes, 
And smiles a bit — a toothless smile half touched, 
perhaps, with fear; 
And though he cannot see them he is looking at the 
skies, 
As if he prays, but silently, for hope and faith 
and cheer. 

The foreign women pass him by, their tarnished coins 
held tight. 
They toss their heads and will not hear his music's 
wistful hum — 
But through each alley way and street, like moths 
that seek the light, 
With eager eyes and laughing lips the little chil- 
dren come. 

He plays his ancient, shaky song, his mouth moves to 
it's sway. 
He does not know the tune of it is old and out of 
key; 
For, through his eyes, a soul stares out that wanders 
far away. 
In some fair land of youth and love — some land 
that used to be. 



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The little children cluster close, bareheaded, bare of 
limb — 
They hold their ragged frocks and dance, they do 
not care — or know, 
That they are like a garden place, a fragrant dream 
to him, 
Or that the tune he plays was quite forgotten long 
ago. 



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"BE OF GOOD CHEER!" 

Temptation came to me today, 

And oh, I felt that I must stray 

Down primrose paths, forgetting all. . . . 

The city's fevered, siren call 

Spoke to my soul, its whispered cry 

Said, "Live, for Youth, too soon, will die V' 

So all alone, when work was done, 
I sought the park. The setting sun 
Had left a bit of warmth for me — 
I found a bench beneath a tree, 
And sat and thought. 

My life is hard. 
Sometimes my heart seems battle-scarred, 
With longings keen, and bitter fears. 
And want, and suffering, and tears. 

Temptation spoke, and Youth spoke back; 

The night seemed cold and grimly black, 

And every light was like a star 

That cleft the sky — they were so far, 

So very far away ! And I 

Was lonely, there, beneath the sky. , ♦ . 

There used to be a little farm 

A tiny place, remote from harm; 

There used to be a mother frail 

And sweet, with hair as silver-pale 

As the faint moon. She heard me say 

The words when first I learned to pray. . 

Above me in the silent trees, 
I heard the rustles of the breeze. 
It sounded like her step, as light 
As dreams across an endless night. 
My mother — 

Ah, the name so sweet. 
Brought memories on noiseless feet. 
And softly in the darkness, there, 
I breathed my little childhood prayer. . , . 

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Do prayers have answers? As I prayed 

A Presence came, and gently laid 

A Hand upon my arm. I knew 

That Someone kind, and good, and true 

Was very near. Upon my soul 

A peace swept down, and left it whole. 

I felt a calm steal over me, 

The same that stilled the troubled sea 

Where Jesus walked. 

My fears were laid, 
Temptation left me unafraid. 
And as I smiled, there in the park, 
A voice spoke through the fragrant dark. 
"Be of good cheer !" the words rang out 
Like music' through the city's shout. 

And all the lights that I could see 
Were stars of home, agleam for me ! 



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FEOM MY ROOM 

I love you, dear. . . . 

Here, alone in my room tonight, it is all that matters, 

Out through my window, vaguely hushed, the city 

clatters. 
Telling ever its tale of woe and mirth. 
Sighing ever its song of death and birth. 
Singing ever its potent, mad refrain, 
Swept with tears and the bitter weight of pain. 

Here in my room I kneel, alone, to pray, 
But there seems very little, dear, to say 
Even to God. So, kneeling by my bed, 
I think dim thoughts, and dream long dreams in- 
stead. 
Wide-eyed I kneel and watch the candle flame. 
Making swift shadows on the wall; your name 
Throbs in my heart, and makes my pulse to thrill — 
Wide-eyed I kneel, with soul a-light, until 
Somewhere a clock starts chiming. . . . It is 

late. . . . 
Out through the dark wan tenderness and hate 
Press pale kisses upon the city's lips — 
Dawn comes creeping, the weary nighttime slips 
Furtively by, like some hurt thief with plunder. . . . 
Dear, I cross to my window, and I wonder 
Whether you are asleep, or if you lie. 
Sleepless beneath the smoke-hung purple sky. . . . 

Down in the streets the tired city vaguely clatters. 
Here alone in my room I stand, and nothing matters. 
Only. ... I love you! 



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THE BALCONY SCENES 

The stage is set, like a garden, 
And the lights are flickering and low; 
And a Eomeo with fat legs. 

Is telling a Juliet wdth dyed hair and tired, dis- 
illusioned eyes. 
That love — real love — is the only thing in the world. 

And up in the balcony of the theatre 

Where the seats cost twenty-five cents, 

A slim little girl in a shiny serge frock, 

And a boy with a wistful mouth 

Are holding hands. 

And as they listen, breathlessly, to the studied voice 

of the actor. 
Their fingers are all a-thrill, 
With the music of the ages. 



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A BOWERY PAWN-SHOP 

A dusty, musty little shop set in a dingy street, 

A doorsill old and scarred and worn by many tired 

feet, 
A row of cases, vaguely glassed, a safe against the 

wall. 
And, oh, the ache of many hearts — the fabric of it 

all! 

A violin with broken strings that fingers have 

caressed, 
A diamond-set betrothal ring that lover's lips have 

pressed, 
A high shell comb, a spangled fan, a filmy bit of lace, 
A heart-shaped locket, ribbon-tied, that frames a 

laughing face. 

A pair of blankets folded up, an overcoat, a shawl, 
A tall old clock that might have chimed in some 

wainscoted hall, 
And in the farthest corner, where the purple shadows 

lie. 
The echo of a woman's sob, the phantom of a sigh. 

Ah, wedding-rings — a score of them — not many of 

them new, 
A grim revolver laid beside a baby's tiny shoe, 
A satin coat, a ragged gown, a gold-clasped book of 

verse, 
A necklace of bedraggled pearls, an empty silver 

purse. 

A dreary weary little shop set in a sunless place. 

A little shop where love has met with sorrow and 
disgrace. . . . 

A row of cases, double-locked, a safe against the wall ; 

And, oh, the ache of countless hearts that lies be- 
hind it all! 



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SPEING IN THE CITY 

I saw a crocus blooming in the park, 
I felt a hint of magic in the air, 
I heard faint music sighing everywhere, 

And so, as all the world grew softly dark — 

I found again the hope that never dies. 
And hungrily, with out-flung arms, I came 
Once more to you. And when you spoke my 
name 

I read springtime eternal in your eyes! 



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Rose petals in the early raw.. 

Forgotten dreams, 

And a torn sketch hook! 



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LI'L EMPTY CLOSET 

There's a li'l empty closet in a li'l empty room. 

Where th' shadows lie like dust upon th' floor; 
It uster be his closet not s' very long ago — 

That's why I don't go near it any more. 
Every li'l hook is empty, 'ceptin' one, an' from it 
hangs 

(Th' whitest li'l ghost that ever grew 
In a heart that's near ter breakin' with it's agony o' 
grief ! ) 

An empty flannel nightie piped with blue. 

Jus' a li'l flannel nightie that was shrunken in th' 
wash. 

In spots th' blue has ran inter th' white ; 
But I've seen him in it, sleepy, when I tucked th* 
covers in. 

An' kissed him, soft, an took away th' light. 
Jus' a li'l flannel nightie, hangin' empty on a hook. 

As if it was ashamed — or in disgrace — 
Jus' a li'l flannel nightie an' it ain't no use no more. 

But I couldn't bear t' take it from its place ! 

Jus' a li'l empty closet in a li'l empty room, 

Where th' shadows lie like dust upon th' floor — 
It uster be his closet, where I'd put his clothes away, 

That's why I hate ter go there any more. 
But I've left his li'l nightie hangin' on a single hook, 

I sorter had ter leave it there, I guess; 
Ah, that li'l empty closet in that li'l empty room 

Is crowded — crowded ful o' loneliness ! 



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TWO LULLABYS 
I. To A Deeam Baby 

Oh, little child whose face I cannot see, 

I feel your presence very near tonight, 
I feel the warmth of you creep close to me. . . 

The grey moths drift across the candlelight, 
And tiny shadows sway across the floor, 

Like wistful elves who do a fairy dance; 
The wind is tapping softly at the door. 

And rain is beating, like a silver lance. 
Against the tightly curtained window pane. 

Oh, little child whose face I cannot see. 
The loneliness, the twilight, and the rain. 

Have brought your dearness very close to me. 
And though I rock with empty arms, I sing 

A lullaby that I have made to croon 
Into your drowsy shadow ear — a song 

About the star sheep and the shepherd moon ! 



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II. Poppy Land 

Sleep, little tired eyes, close to the heart of me, 
Sleep while the sun trembles low in the west; 

You who are dream of my dreams, and a part of 
me — 
Sleep with your head lying warm on my breast. 

Dear, there's a land that is filled with red flowers, 

Poppies, they call them, that sway in the breeze; 
Sometimes their petals, in soft scarlet showers, 
Fall in warm drifts that are high as your 
knees. . . . 
Dear, in your dreams you will laugh as you roll 
through them, 
"Waving your arms in an effort to creep ; 
Gently they nod as the wind sings its soul through 
them. 
Sleep, little tired eyes, sleep. . . . 

Dear, in this land there's a sky like a feather. 

Blue in some places, or white as a star; 
And there's a fragrance — a plant that's called heather 

Grows in the spot where the butterflies are. 
Dear, there are pastures as gay as glad laughter, 

Dotted with hundreds of woolly white sheep. 
Dear, you can pat them, for they'll follow after 

You, as you sleep. . . . 

Dream, little tired eyes, close to the breast of me, 
Wander in fields where red flowers are gleaming; 

All of my heart wanders with you, the rest of me 
Watches your dreaming. . . . 



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I DREAMED YOUR FACE 

I dreamed your face, one night, when Heaven seemed 
resting. 

Against the troubled fever of the earth; 
I dreamed that vivid throated birds were nesting, 

In trees that sliook with elfin-hearted mirth. 
I dreamed that star-like purple flowers were springing 

A-throb with perfume all about the place, 
And that there was a far-off sound of singing — 

And then — I dreamed your face ! 

I dreamed your face, and then I waked from 
dreaming, 

( The creeping dawn seemed very cold and bare ! ) 
The rising sun seemed pallid in its beaming. 

Because its coming did not find you there ! 
And I — I rose despondent in the morning, 

As one whose burning thirst has not been slaked; 
1 dreamed your face, a wonder world adorning. 

And then — I waked. 

And so I went upon a quest to find you, 

A quest that led through many bitter years; 
I journeyed far with strands of love to bind you, 

And found, not you, but bitterness and tears — 
So I returned, discouraged, through the gloammg, 

My shoulders bowed with weariness unguessed; 
I came back, unsuccessful, from my roaming — 

My sorry quest! 



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I had a bit of garden that I tended, 

It helped me dream, again, my dream of yon — 
It was a joyous place of colors blended — 

A place where pansies and Sweet William grew. 
And one bright day I' hummed as I was planting 

A border row of flowers slim and fair. 
And raised my eyes to see pale sunlight slanting 

Across your hair! 



GO 



ANSWER 

I am myself — you cannot take my dreams 

And pnll the filmy stuff of them apart! 
I am myself — and life is what it seems. 

I am myself, and love is in my heart! 
You cannot make me think by fast set rule, 

You cannot laugh beliefs like mine away. 
Experience may be a bitter school, 

And yet. . . . The golden sun shines every day, 
And stars at night lend magic to the sky, 

And all the world is vividly a-glow, 
You cannot make me pause to question why 

For we who dare to dream have learned to know ! 

The world is right! There is a friendly One 

Who smiles when we have tried to do our part — 

I will not flinch, my journey's just begun. . . . 
/ am myself — you cannot break my heart! 



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A BABY'S HANDS 

God made the rivers, the hills, and the seas, 
God made the flowers, the grass, and the trees; 
God made the clouds, and the waves, silver-crested. 
Then God made the hands of a baby — and rested! 

How did He make them? Well, nobody knows — 
Some say He dreamed of the bud of a rose. 
And that He woke as the dawn swept away 
Night in the dancing pink promise of day. 

Maybe He thought of the light of a star, 
( That's why He made them as soft as they are ! ) 
Maybe He watched while a new butterfly. 
Light as a sunbeam, went fluttering by. 

Maybe He walked in a garden, dew-kissed. 
That's why He made them as frail as the mist — 
Then as He leaned from His heaven above, 
God made them strong as His greatest gift — love! 

God made the mountains — we wonder at these — 
God made the splendor of sunsets and trees; 
God made vast mines where a world's wealth is piled. 
Then God made the hands of a baby — and smiled ! 



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ALL ALONG THE BEOAD HIGHWAY 

All along the broad highway the little dreams were 
growing, 
White as hope, and red as life, and bluer than the 
sea — 
All along the broad highway I felt their petals 
blowing. 
Like a storm of fragrant snow across the lips of 
me! 
So I danced with joyous heart, and bent above them 
singing. 
So I skipped along the road and smiled into the 
skies ; 
All along the broad highivay the little dreams were 
springing, 
Fragrant as the dew of stars and glad as butter- 
flies! 

All along the broad highway I danced and sang un- 
heeding. 
Till One came with haughty step and traveled by 
my side; 
Traveled first beside my path then, suddenly, was 
leading — 
One who drew me after him and murmured, ''I am 
Pride r 
All along the broad highway I hurried, ever faste^^ 
Faster through the purple dust that blinded like 
a mist. 
Blinded me until I felt that only Pride was master, 
(And I saw the little dreams through clouds of 
amethyst ! ) 



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All along the broad highway I toiled, no longer 
glancing 
Anywhere but straight ahead ... I had no 
heart to sing — 
All along the broad highway, my feet no longer 
dancing ; 
Followed I the steps of Pride, and felt the thick 
dust sting 
In the tired eyes of me . . . the eyes too sad for 
weeping ! 
Still I struggled — struggled on until quite 
suddenly — 
All the strength that kept me up seemed drowsy, 
almost sleeping — 
And I paused with drooping head and lo. Pride 
went from me ! 

All along the broad highway the silent dusk was 
stealing, 
Quite alone I stood and stared about me in the 
gloom ; 
And the voice of me was still, and my heart was 
kneeling 
Like a weary pilgrim soul in an attic room. 
And I stretched my empty hands to where the ghostly 
lighting. 
Showed a crumpled mist of blue, a heap of white 
and red — 
There along the broad highway like armies after 
fighting, 
All the gallant little dreams were lying gaunt and 
dead ! 



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MY MOTHER 

My mother's kinder chubby — she's fat, th' fellers 

say— 
My mother's kinder chubby, but I like her that a-way ! 
'Cause she's awful sorter jolly, an' she makes th' 

bestest pies. 
An' she laughs when I'm a-jokin' 'till th' tears are in 

her eyes. 
An' she pats me on th' shoulder when I'm feelin' 

sad an' blue. 
An' whispers, "Little feller, yer mother's proud o' 

you !" 

She don't wear silks 'at rustle, like Tommie's mother 

does. 
But I like her gingham better 'cause it's — well, just 

'cause it's hers ! 
An' she don't look young an' girl-like, an' her hands 

are sorter red. 
But, my, they're awful gentle when she tucks you 

inter bed, . . . 
She hasn't got a di'mond like th' lady crost th' street. 
But she's got two great big dimples, an' her smile is 

mighty sweet! 

My mother's sorter chubby — but say, her step is 

light- 
She's never cross 'r tired — not even when it's night! 
An' her shoulders jmt as comfy when yer heart is 

feelin' sore. 
When you wish you was a baby — an' not a boy no 

more — 
Oh, her arms are cushion tender at th' twilight time 

o' day. 
Yes — my mother's sorter chubby — But I like her that 



a-way ! 



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HEREDITY 

You told me, last night, 

In a strange and sudden burst of confidence; 

That a New England ancester of yours, 

Had burned witches — 

And at last I knew. . . . 

Why your eyes are always so grim. 

And why your mouth is cut, 

In a straight line, 

And why you can never see beauty and mirth 

In the sweep of wind over a wheat field. 

Or in the sunlight on a baby's hair. 

At last I knew 

Why you can never see romance 

In the long gypsie trail. 

Or magic. 

In the still purple woods. 

I knew why life. 

To you, 

Was something to be struggled with, 

Not a glorious adventure; 

And why death was the end of things, 

And not the beginning. 

And I knew at last. 

Why you could never understand. 

That tears may cover laughter. 

And that laughter may be a veil 

For tears. 

You told me, last night. 

That an ancestor of yours, 

Had burned witches. 

And, oh, as I sat in the candlelight, 

Watching you, 

I couldn't help wishing. 

That somewhere behind you, in the shadows, 

G6 



There was another ancestor — 
A gay cavalier ancestor — 
Who rode hard, 
And fought with his sword, 
And wore his hat, rakishly. 
On the back of his head. 
And knew — love. 



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APEIL 

I had not meant to love again — all that was lost to 

me, 
For I had felt love's fear and pain, as well as ecstasy ; 
I closed my heart, and locked the door, and tossed 

away the key. 

All through the winter-time I sat before my flaming 

fire, 
And listened to the sleigh-bells chime, and watched 

the flames leap higher. 
To grasp at shadows, sombre-hued, with fiendish, red 

desire. 

And then mad April came again — I felt the breezes 

blowing. 
And I forgot the fear, the pain. ... I only knew 

that, glowing, 
In shady nook and garden spot, pale hyacinths were 

growing. 

And when across the perfumed lea (for nothing could 

defeat him l) 
My vagrant love crept back to me . . .1 did not 

mean to greet him ; 
But April opened up my heart, and, oh, I ran to 

meet him ! 



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THE DESERT PATH— SEVEN SONNETS 

I. 

The camel tracks led whitely across the desert sand, 
And one came riding after with furtive mystery; 
Ah, one came swiftly riding, a dagger in his hand. 
And he was bent on plunder — a nomand thief was he ! 
He did not heed the starshine that glimmered from 

on high. 
For laden beasts had traveled along the lonely way. 
He did not see the glory that swept the Eastern sky, 
For he had far to journey before the dawn of day. 

He followed through the desert, and then at last he 

saw 
An inn upon the outskirts of some small village place ; 
And there were camels resting before the stable 

door — 
He left his horse, crept nearer, with greed upon his 

face; 
And peering o'er the threshold, he saw that gold was 

piled, 
With precious stones and incense, before a little 

Child. 



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•II 

A thief he was by calling, who to the stable came, 
A thief whose youthful fingers had learned to steal 

their fill; 
A thief he was who valued his heritage of shame, 
Yet standing by that doorway, he did not want to 

Mil! 
A thief he was, but — watching — he saw a Baby face, 
And, bending near, a Mother, whose joy was unde- 

filed; 
And for one breathless moment across the stable 

space. 
The Baby's eyes gazed at him — and then the Bahy 

smiled! 

A thief he was by calling, but there beside the door 
He saw a Holy Vision — he knelt and tried to pray — 
And something, thrilling, whispered of love forever- 
more — 
And then he rose, half weeping — and it was Christ- 
mas Day ! 
A thief he was by calling, who felt the Father's plan. 
But back across the desert there silent rode a man! 



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III. 



The years are met as milestones upon a winding road, 

And some slip by like shadows, and some are fair 
with flowers; 

And some seem dreary, hopeless — a leaden chain of 
hours — 

And some are like a heart-throb, and some a heavy 
load. 

The thief, a thief no longer, a lonely figure strode 

Heart-weary down life's pathway, through tempest 
and through showers. 

But always prayed that somewhere among sweet- 
scented bowers, 

A Baby's smile might show him where happiness 
abode. 

For he was often hungry — a thief, reformed, must 

eat — 
And there were folk who shunned him, and turned 

his plea away ; 
And there were those who scourged him from out 

the market place — 
(They were the ones who told him to earn his bread 

and meat ! ) 
Yet ever he walked onward, and dreamed of some 

fair day 
When he would find the Christ-Child with love upon 

His face ! 



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IV. 



Where work lay for the asking it seemed that men 

might work, 
But prejudice was rampant in every shop and field; 
And, "What if you are trying, my scythe you may 

not wield!" 
Men told the thief, who answered — "Indeed, I will 

not shirk!" 
And carpenters and builders turned from him with 

a smirk. 
And farmers hurried by him to house the harvests 

yield. 
And so he took his dagger, all rusted, and his shield, 
And sought again the highway where thieves and 

jackals lurk. 

And yet the spark of manhood still flamed within his 

heart. 
And still he saw the Baby, beyond the stable door; 
And oftentimes at even, as crimson daytime died. 
He knelt, a sorry figure, from all of life apart. 
And, "Oh, if I could see Him — and feel His love 

once more, 
"If I could see Him smiling, I would not steal !" he 

cried. 



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V. 



It was a glowing ruby that caused the thief to fall, 
But — he was very hungry, and lonely, too, and cold; 
And youth lay all behind him, a tattered funeral 

pall, 
For he was very tired, and he was growing old. 
It was a glowing ruby that lay upon the breast 
Of one who had not earned it, who wore it with a 

sneer; 
The thief was very weary, he only longed for rest; 
He was too wan for caring, he was too nuiiib for fear ! 

It was a glowing ruby — he held it in his hand — 
His hand was thin and withered, it shook beneath 

the gem; 
He took the vivid ruby, the ransom of a land. 
And tied it firmly, tightly, within his garment's hem ; 
And then he shuffled forward, but like a thorn 

within 
His soul he bore the torment of bitterness and sin ! 



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VI. 



They caught him when the morning had tinged the 
Eastern skies; 

The gem was found upon him, as red as guilty blood ; 

He stood, his head sunk forward, with listless, shal- 
low eyes. 

And hopelessness submerged him like some unholy 
flood ; 

A Thief he was by calling. The law? The law 
was great; 

What chance had he for pity? His fate was sealed 
and done; 

He was unclean, an outcast, a menace to the state ; 

A thing to be avoided, a stain against the sun ! 

They led him to his hearing, the hall was still and 
light; 

A judge was seated higher, who passed him with a 
glance ; 

And suddenly, forgetting his weariness and fright. 

The thief cried, leaping forward, "I did not have a 
chance !" . 

The judgment hall was spacious, and coldly white 
and wide — 

And coldly came the sentence — "He shall be cruci- 
fied r 



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VII. 

They nailed him, God's creation, upon a cross of 

shame ; 
They nailed him up with laughter, they heeded not 

his tears; 
And people looking at him were moved to soulless 

jeers. 
And agony was on him — a searing, breathless flame ! 
And then, as he hung sobbing, a sudden feeling came 
Of peace that, reaching toward him across the sound 

of sneers, 
Was like a burst of music that one more feels than 

hears — 
For, from somewhere beside him, a Voice had 

breathed his name. 

Ah, he was weak with anguish, and yet he turned his 
head. 

And saw a cross beside him, and on the cross a Form ; 

And he forgot the tumult, the horror and the storm — 

And someone, down below him, said, "Look, the thief 
is dead !" 

But, safe from fear and torture beyond their scorn- 
ful cries, 

The thief had gazed at Heaven in Christ's triumphant 
eves I 



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SUMMEE SONG 

If I might go with my True Love, 

To some far, dream-swept land, 
I^d be content to sit all day 

Upon the silver sand, 
And watch the sea come creeping in. 

The sighing, singing sea — 
If I might go to some far land. 

And take True Love with me ! 

If I could go with my True Love, 

To some far, lonely place; 
The world might well be lost, and I 

Could look upon Love's face. 
And wealth would seem a little thing. 

While happiness might be — 
If I could go to some far land, 

And take True Love with me. 

Ah, Love would smile, and ruffle up. 

The hair above my brow; 
And we would laugh at all that seems 

So very sober, now. 
And monkey-folk, and scarlet birds. 

Would peer from every tree. 
And try to understand the words 

My True Love said to me ! 

If I might go with my True Love, 

To some far, dream-swept land; 
I would not miss the world, for I 

Could always touch Love's hand. 
And feel the magic of his lips — 

Oh, by the singing sea, 
And Eden-place would bloom a-new 

For my True Love and me ! 



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COMPREHENSION— A MOTHER'S SONG 

I know how Mary felt, there in the hay. 
My little son was horn on Christmas Day! 

I know, as she bent tenderly above Him, 

She did not think of majesty or power. 
For he was her's — and she was there to love Him ! 

His hands, as pinkly tinted as a flower, 
Seemed all too small to carve His deathless story — 

What though a star gleamed glorious to guide 
Him? 

She snatched Him to her breast as if to hide Him 
From harm, and fear, and even — yes, from glory. 

And when the wise men came to give their treasure, 
She smiled at them as proud as any queen; 

She scarcely saw the jewels in countless measure, 
The gold that gleamed; her gaze was far, serene, 

Upon the hills where shepherds watched, alone. 
She did not think of crosses or of dying, 
For He was just a drowsy baby, lying 

Wrapped in her love — A baby — all her own! 

/ know how Mary felt, there in the hay. 
My little son was horn on Christmas Day! 



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SINGING ON THE MARCH 

God put a song into my heart one day, 
A little song as light as ocean foam, 
A little song of love and hope and home, 

A little song to cheer me on my way. 

And though I bowed beneath the load I bore, 
I found that, when I sang, the way was bright. 
And that my footsteps swifter grew, and light; 

And all my life seemed fairer than before. 

God has a song that fits in every heart. 

And though that song may seem a tiny thing. 
It is your task — so forge ahead, and sing — 

And you will find that you have done your part ! 



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EASTER 

He came to call last night — 
And we began to talk, as young folk will, 
Half carelessly, and half in awe, of God. 
It was the springtime, and the night was still 
And fragrant, all about us. 

And the sod 
Was fresh with tender grass. 
And overhead a crescent moon shone bright. 
And, "God," he said, "Has built the world on laws, 
"Like some great watch, and every breathing space 
"Is measured; and the system has no flaws, 
"And nothing moves from its appointed place. 
"God is the Master Scientist," he said. 
His voice was bold and had a ring of truth — 
But God seemed ponderous, and far away. . . . 

And then a gentle breeze danced overhead. 

And caused the timid, new-born leaves to sway, 

And we began to talk of love, and youth. 

And then, I sent him home, and went upstairs, 

To my still room, and flung the windows wide; 

And as I knelt to say my evening prayers 

I saw the stars, far smiling, in the sky. 

And, all at once, I knew the reason why 

I worshipped God . . . knew why He had sent 

His son to save the world from sin and shame; 

And, suddenly, like some sweet, healing tide, 

The meaning of my life swept over me; 

And, through the dark, my groping soul could see 

The Christ Who loved us, and was crucified. 

And, as I knelt and watched the star's faint shine, 
I felt God's hand, a moment, touching mine ! 



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RESURRECTION" 

You took the lilt from my heart of hearts. 
And the breath of song from my soul; 

And the mind of me that had once been free 
And buoyantly young, and whole; 

Grew calm and still as a barren sea. 
Where never a star beam shone, 

A sea where never a ripple danced — 
That reflected your face alone. 

I walked in a daze down well-worn paths — 

Paths that your feet had trod; 
I thought your thoughts and I spoke your tongue, 

I knelt to your hostile God.' 
And the dreams that had been a part of me, 

I tossed with a sigh away, 
And left to rust in the misty dust 

Of the land called Yesterday. 

My hands lay folded in slim repose. 

Quite as you bade them rest; 
Folded, meek, o'er the leaden heart 

That tortured my gypsie breast. 
And I smiled with my lips — my eyes were numb- 

I smiled for I never knew, 
That the mind of me was a lifeless sea. 

Reflecting the face of you! 

You took the lilt from my carefree life. 

And the song from my singing heart; 
But there came a day when the world grew gray. 

When I knew that we must part. ... 
So I tore you out of your soul-bound shrine — 

And, oh, though it caused me pain, 
I raised my face to the sky and knew 

That my song would come again ! 



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THE QUEEN" 

"Barefooted came the beggar maid," 

So ran the minstrel's lay — 
"Barefooted came the beggar maid 

"Before the King Corpethua/' 
But, oh, her face was like a light. 
Her hair was black as middle night. 
And whispers ran from left to right — 

"She is more beautiful than day V' 

"In robe and crown the king stepped down,'* 

So ran the minstrel's lay — 
"In robe and crown the king stepped down, 

"To meet and greet her by the way." 
And so the beggar maid became, 
A Queen, but just a queen in name. 
For, with her gypsie eyes aflame, 

Her mirror heard her say — 

I was a beggar maid, I used to lie 

Silent and unafraid, beneath the sky. 

And watch the stars — my little sisters, they, 

I used to wake at dawning time of day 

To plunge my body in some mountain stream — 

I was a beggar maid ! 

Is this a dream, 
This golden crown I wear upon my head? 
This robe of royal purple and of red. 
This rope of pearls, this ring, these silken shoon? 

Not long ago the silver crescent moon 

Was like a hand that beckoned me to stray. 

And cities seemed vast centuries away; 

And as my feet^swift feet, they were, and light — 

Carried me through the wonder of the night, 

I never thought of kings, or kingly power — 

My life was all one splendid, singing hour! 

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I love my king — He raised me from the dust. 
And looked at me with wonder, and with trust; 
My hair hung, tangled, to the waist of me. 
He brushed it from my eyes, that he might see 
Deep into them ! 

He set me on his steed, 
He never knew my name, or asked my creed. 
He just believed in me — and told me so. 
I love my king, I love him well, but, oh — 
Once I wore poppies, red upon my brow, 
(A crown seems very heavy to me, now,) 
And once I wore, for all the world to see 
A gown of rags. (Now, velvets stifle me!) 
And once my hands (how soft they are!) were strong 
To toil for me. 

The days seem very long 
While I must sit in state above the land — 
I love my king . . . But does he understand? 
I was a beggar maid, I used to lie 
Silent and unafraid beneath the sky — 
And, now that I am queen, my being longs 
To hear, once more, the little slumber songs 
Of night birds nesting in some forest tree — 
I want to be myself, again, and free ! 
I want to climb the crest of some great hill, 
And watch the sunset clouds, again, and thrill 
Before the color of them ! I would stand 
Alone, once more, and see the wistful land 
Take on the tint of twilight. 

I would pray 
My gypsie prayer, again, at close of day ! 

I love my king — for he has given me 
Eare pearls, the treasure of a sighing sea, 
And rubies, red as sunset clouds a-glow 
And opals like the wistful winds that blow 
At twilight-time. 



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But I would wear, instead. 
Wild forest flowers, twined about my head — 
And I would dance, barefooted, on the sod, 
An innovation to my pagan God! 

Am I a queen? What is this crown I wear? 
I tear it from my smoothly plated hair — 
I lay my ring, my rope of pearls, aside; 
Am I a queen — am I a monarch's bride? 
The soul of me is still a gypsie thing — 
I pull them off, the glowing gems, the ring. . 

I love my king, I love him well — ^but, oh, 
Give me my rags, again, and let me go! 



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FRAGMENTS 

A Withered Eose 

A book of verse, 

And one withered rose 

Between two pages. . . . 

My love is as faded as the petals, 
But still faintly fragrant 
With sweet memories. 

Ashes of Love 

Dust on the letters you sent me 

And I did not know that they had been forgotten. 

Does it mean that I love again? 



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IT^S LOTS OF FUN— 

It's lots of fun to play around. 

To dance and sing; 
And not be tied to anyone. 

Or anything! 

It's lots of fun to live my life. 

Beneath the sky; 
To have no one who owns the right 

To question "Why''? 

It's lots of fun to come and go, 
Through storm and strife. 

With no one by my side who hopes 
To mould my life. 

(But sometimes at the twilight time. 

When night birds cry; 
I dream, perhaps, that something fair 

Has passed me by!) 

And yet — it's good to play around. 

To laugh and sing; 
And not be tied to anyone. 

Or anything ! 



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VALENTINE 

I wonder if you know, up there in heaven. 

That I have kept your roses, crumpled now. 
I wonder if you guess that still I treasure 

A faded ribbon that once touched your brow. 
I wonder if you dream, as dusk is falling, 

Of how I read that note you sent to me. 
I wonder if you think, up there in heaven. 

Of all the golden dav? that used to be. 

I wonder if you smile up there in heaven, 

And pass by, lightly, in your robes of white ; 
Or if you sometimes think of me a little. 

You seem so near, so very near tonight. 
I wonder if that last shy kiss I gave you 

Can make you lonely, just a bit, for me. 
I wonder if you long, up there in heaven. 

For all the golden plans that used to be. 

Do they have valentines up there in heaven ? 

A love like mine is surely strong to go 
The little way from earth to where you wait me. 

Although it be beyond the stars' faint glow. 
I want you dear ; my tired heart is calling ; 

My eyes are searching, though they may not see; 
I wonder if you're lonely, there in heaven. 

For all the golden dreams that used to be. 



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THE SACKIFICE 

I started out in a cloak of pride, 

With talent, too, that I did not hide; 

I started out on Life's stony road, 

Ambition's weight was my only load. 

And the way seemed fair in the dawn's first glow, 

And I hurried — ran — for I did not know! 

Love smiled from a garden by the way. 

And called to me, but I would not stray 

From the road that stretched like a ribbon white, 

Up endless hills to an endless night. 

Love smiled at me, but I pushed ahead. 

And love fell back in the garden — dead — 

But I did not care as I hastened by. 

And I did not pause for regret or sigh. . . . 

The road before was a path of hope. 

And every hill with its gentle slope 

Led up to heights I had dreamed and prayed 

To reach some day — 

Ah ! I might have stayed 
With Love and Youth in the garden gay. 
That smiled at me from beside the way. 

I plodded up, and the gentle hills 

Grew hard to climb, and the laughing rills 

Were torrents peopled with sodden forms; 

The sky grew black with the threat of storms, 

And rocks leaped out and they bruised my feet. 

And faint I grew in the fever heat. 

(But ever on led the path that lay 

As grey as dust in the waning day.) 

My back was bent, and my heart was sore. 

And the cloak of pride that I grandly wore 

Was rent and patched and not fair to see — 

Ambition, talent, seemed naught to me. . . . 

But I struggled on 'till I reached the top. 

For only then did I dare to stop! 

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I stood on the summit gazing down, 

And the earth looked sordid and dull and brown, 

And neutral-tinted and neutral-souled ; 

And all of life seemed a story told, 

And the only spot that was bright to see 

Was a patch of green that had bloomed for me 

Where a garden lived in a spring long fled, 

When Love stood smiling — 

But love was dead! 



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TO A CERTAIN ROOM 

Your room is still the dainty little place, 

That used to seem so much a part of you — 

The draperies of faded rose and blue 
Still hold a shadow of their former grace. 
The windows still are hung with frosty lace, 

And sometimes, when the moonlight glimmers 
through, 

I watch your mirror, half expecting to 
See once again, reflected there, your face! 

And yet, the little room seems much too neat, 
It seems quite colorless, and very bare. 
Because the filmy things you used to wear 

Are laid away. Because the perfume sweet 

That clung about you has been swept aside. . . . 
Your room is there — but, oh, its soul has died ! 



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OTHER DAYS 

I wonder if you ever dream of other days, 
Because, sometimes, at twilight when the sunset 

plays 
Half wistfully across the polished oaken floor, 
I see you smiling — standing in your place once more. 

(Do you remember little things we used to say? 
They wouldn't mean so very much to us to-day. . . . 
Do you remembe-r how I wore a gown of blue, 
Because it brought the haze of autumn clouds to you ? 
Do you remember how I said you didn't care — 
And how you laughed at me and rumpled up my 

hair? 
Do you remember how the tears stood in my eyes 
At your good-by when darkness overhung the skies?) 

I wonder if you ever dream of other days? 
Because, sometimes at twilight when the sunset plays 
Half wistfully across your empty cozy-chair, 
I turn and half expect to see you smiling there! 



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This is to you, dear. 
To you, unknowing ; 
Just as the south ivmd 
Wistfully blowing 
Touches some flower — 

80 is my song, dear. 
Through every hour. 
All the day long, dear. 
To you, unknowing! 



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AT TWILIGHT 

You came to me through the candlelight, 
When the world, outside, was grey. . . . 
You came to me through the candlelight 
When the day was done, and the misty night 
Crept through the land. 

And your eyes were bright, 
And they seemed to laugh and pray. 
You came to me through the candlelight, 
And you took my hands, and you held them tight, 
And you didn't speak, but, dear, I knew — 
And my heart and my soul were part of you. 

You came to me through the candlelight. 

When the world, outside, was grey; 

And I looked in your eyes and, glowing there, 

I saw a hope and I read a prayer; 

And I knew, at last, that I didn't care. 

If life were a troubled, weary way. 

As long as I walked with you. 

You came to me, at the close of day, 

Through the candlelight — when the world was grey — 

And dreams of Heaven seemed strangely new. . . . 

And I told you, dear, to stay! 



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THERE AEE SUCH WEARY LITTLE LINES 

There are such weary little lines about the mouth of 

you, 

Such tragic little mirthless lines — they mock at 

dreams come true, 
And twist your lips when you would smile, until all 

joy is dead, 
And I, who want to laugh with you, am fain to| 

weep instead ! 

There are such dreary little lines about the mouth of 

you, 

They make me want to whisper that summer sky is 

blue, 
And that the rain is like a lance of silver through 

the air. 
And that the flowers in the lane are growing tall 

and fair ! 

There are such tired little lines about the mouth of 

you— 
As if you thought that life was cold and loving 

friends were few. . . . 
They are such lonely little lines I think that I, some 

day. 
Will creep close to you in the dusk, and kiss them 

quite away! 



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THREE SONGS OF AWAKENING 
1. 

The flowers spring from the broken heart, 

Of the frozen winter sod — 
Eending their prison bars apart, 

They smile in the face of God! 

The birds sweep up to the wind-blown plain, 
E'er ever the land knows spring; 
To sway on a budding branch again. 
To challenge the world, and sing! 

And I with my tired eyes a-dance. 

And my weary heart a-flame; 
Have felt the call of the old romance. 

And thrilled to a whispered name ! 

2. 

I saw a sky as blue as eyes I know, 
I felt a breeze, as soft as kisses, blow; 

And, dear, I saw one golden sunbeam creep 
From Heaven, lighting all the world below. 

Like love that wakens, dewy-eyed, from sleep ! 

3. 

We who have wondered know the answer, now; 
For Spring stands, joyous, on the purple brow 
Of the far hill; and doubt is swept away. 
And all the mirth-mad world makes holiday! 

We who have wandered long, and half afraid. 
Find answer in each dreaming woodland glade; 
Hearts that have hrolcen may he bound together. 
When Spring has triumphed over winter weather! 

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m A CANOE 

Starlight, and the silver lake 

Clasp the skies — 
And two nearer, dearer stars, 

Your eyes ! 

Elfin voices seem to call 

Through the night, 
But your arms are warm, and they 

Hold me tight. 

Pallidly the moon slides down. 
Hour by hour slips; 

Ah, the deathless magic of 
Your lips! 

Dark the shadows as we creep 

Past the shore — 
Dear, that we might drift like this 

Evermore ! 



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CAPTIVE-HEART 

Now that the day is done I am ready to greet you, 
Smiling, the way that I know you would have me 
smile ; 
I will open the door, and will run down the walk 
to meet you. 
As if I had missed you, dear, for a weary while ! 
I will listen, breathless, the while you tell of your 
toiling. 
All day long in the dust and the city's heat; 
And, dear, you will never know that my blood is 
boiling — 
Back of the smile that is calm and tenderly sweet. 

You will never know that the soul of me, dear, is 
flying, 
Out where the seagull dips in the ocean's foam ; 
You will never know that something of me is dying. 

Every night as I smile and welcome you home. 
You will never know that my heart is soaring above 

you— 
You will be content with my mask of a smile — 
knowing I love you! 



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EVENING SONG 

I do not want to be worshipped, 

From a distance; 

Like some idol carved in wood, 

Or stone. 

I want to be loved 

As every real woman 

Wants to be loved ! 

And so. . . . 

Lay aside the book that you are reading from — 

What if Leandor did swim the Hellespont? 

And what if biiming Sappho 

Did sing? 

What do I care for 

Launcelot and Elaine, 

Or Tristram and Isolt, 

Or Ancassin and Nicholette? 

Lay aside the book that you are reading from, 

And cross the room quickly, 

And take my cold hands between your two 

Warmer ones. ... 

And here, in the vivid dusk. 

We will make our own love songs! 



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AFTER A DAY OF WAITING 

All day long I waited — waited with soul aflame — 
And then through the still of evening, humming a 

tune, you came; 
Came with a jest on your smiling lips, and eyes that 

were all too gay; 
And the light died out of my waiting heart with the 

words that I could not say. 

We laughed through the star-flecked twilight — what 

though my laugh was strained? 
You, who were there beside me, laughed with a mirth 

unfeigned ! 
And at last when I bade you leave me you went, and 

you never knew 
That with soul aflame I had waited, all through the 

day, for you. 



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INTANGIBLE 

Dear, you are like the summer dusk to me, 

The summer dusk when all the world seems still; 

When purple shadows creep along the hill, 

And birds are softly crooning in each tree. 

You are the gentle-cool-eyed mystery 

Of twilight hours. Sometime I think you will 

Melt from me out into the dark, until 

You turn to star-shine, silvering the sea. 

Dear, even when your head is on my breast. 
You seem no nearer than a moonbeam thrown 
Across my heart. Your fingers have caressed 
My hair so lightly that I scarce have known 
Their pressure. You are like that time when rest 
Steals up so softly that one feels alone ! 



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AT FIRST SIGHT 

Seeing you once, how can I forget 
That our eyes have smiled and our hands have met? 
That our souls have known and our hearts have cried, 
Though our lips were dumb. 

Ah, the world is wide, 
And love there is for us both to know — 
But my eyes were dim as I watched you go ! 

You may wander far, you may come no more. 
But you hold the key to the inmost door 
Of my heart of hearts ! 

For our hands have met, 
And our eyes have smiled, and / can't forget! 



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FIVE SONNETS 
I. The Coming 

I know that Love will come to me, some day, 

Though I have never loved, or looked on Love; 
I know that Love will wait beside the way 

And smile at me. The tender skies above 
Will be alight with all the joy of spring, 

And flowers will lift their heads above the earth. 
And some far bird will stay its flight and sing. 

And fill the land with silver throated mirth. 

I know that Love, at last, with smiling eyes, 
Will pause beside my half-swung cottage door. 

And I will lift my gaze, without surprise. 
To see his shadow dance across the floor. 

I know that Love will come to me, some day, 

When springtime blossoms, shyly, into May! 



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II. Eealization" 

I know that you are not the one that I 

Should fall in love with, for your eyes are blind 
° To all the things that make my world the kind 

I want to live in. Often, when I cry 

At some vague beauty that has caught my eye. 
You laugh ! You cannot dream the dreams I find, 
In forest places where dim pathways wind 

Up to the Heaven-land so far and high. 

I know that I should never learn to care. 

And yet, sometimes the blueness of your eyes 
Can make me half forget the smiling skies. . . . 
And, when I see the sunlight on your hair, 
I do not stop to reason, dear„ for oh — 
My heart throbs faster, and I know — I know! 



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III. The Eain Outside 

You close beside me, and outside, the rain, 

Which, stealing through the darkness of the night. 
Seems tapping out with fingers softly light, 

A world-old song upon my window pane — 

A song of happiness with a refrain 

That throbs in suffering. You hold me tight. 
Your eyes, that search my own, are warmly bright, 

Your lips touch mine again, and yet again ! 

Ah, what though years must pass, though you and I 
May live our lives, quite silently, apart? 

Whenever rain comes, when the day is through. 

And, tapping on my casement, seems to sigh, 
A dream will blossom, fragrant, in my heart, 

A dream of youth eternal, and of — you. 



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IV. I Used to Write 

I used to write so many songs of love — 

I wrote them carefully, I did not know 
That love was more than moonlight from above. 

And pretty words set in an even row. 
I held my pencil calmly in my hand, 

And sang of arms and lips and tender eyes; 
I wrote of love — who did not understand^ — 

And hoped that folk would think me very wise ! 

I used to write so many songs . . . To-day 
My hands are folded, and I cannot sing, 

I sit, instead, and watch the sunlight stray 
Across my desk. And I am wondering 

If God, who lights a million stars each night, 

Laughed at the groping words I tried to write ! 



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V. Moon-Glow 

I wonder if, dim centuries ago, 

We watched the moon together, on some night 
When stars hung very near, and softly bright? 

I wonder if my tired head drooped low 

Against your breast? And if you seemed to know 
(As you know now) the dreams that, like a light, 
Shone in my soul? For, dear, it seems so right — 

So very right that you should hold me so ! 

Here, in the moonlight, there is nothing new, 
The very arms that crush me to your heart. 
Seem almost like a memory, a part 

Of some vague yesterday that has come true — 
I feel tonight as if I, dear, might start 

A journey back, across the years, with you ! 



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FOEGIVEN 

You left me when the weary weight of sorrow 

Lay, like a stone, upon my bursting heart; 
It seemed as if no shimmering tomorrow 

Could dry the tears that you had caused to start. 
You left me, never telling why you wandered — 

Without a word, without a last caress; 
Left me with but the love that I had squandered, 

The husks of love and a vast loneliness. 

And yet if you came back with arms stretched toward 
me. 

Came back to-night, with carefree, smiling eyes. 
And said : "My journeying has somehow bored me. 

And love, though broken, never, never dies !" 
I would forget the wounded heart you gave me, 

I would forget the bruises on my soul. 
My old-time gods would rise again to save me, 

My dreams would grow supremely new and whole. 
What though youth lay, a tattered garment, o'er you ? 

Warm words would leap upon my lips, long dumb ; 
If you came back, with arms stretched out before 
you. 

And told me, dear, that you were glad to come! 



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THE WRITING 

Sometimes a mist of sunlight across a stranger^s hair, 
Sometimes the vague expression upon a stranger's 

face, 
Can make me feel your presence — can fill a lonely 
place 
With dreams of life half realized. Faint music 

through the air 
Can make me hear your foot-fall, again, upon the 
stair — 
Sometimes a dancer moving with quite unconscious 

grace. 
Can make my pulse beat faster; and for a breath- 
less space 
Can make me turn, expecting to find you standing 
there ! 

You have not gone ! The passing of every empty 
day 
Has only brought you nearer. Those things that 
were a part 
Of all we planned together are bits of you that stay. 
To bruise my soul as sharply as any flame-tipped 
dart. 
Ah, time may hold its healing — ^but years that pass 
away 
Cannot erase the writing you traced upon my 
heart ! 



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AT PARTING 

Love of my life, the time has come for parting — 

For, dearest, I must leave you while we care ! 
Leave you while tears of vain regret are starting, 

While I can look at you and find you fair. 
Could we endure a morn of bitter waking. 

Could we accept a love that would seem less? 
Dear, I must go the while my heart is breaking — 

Go while my world is filled with happiness. 

Love of my soul, our dream has been so flaming, 

That, if we waited, it might smoulder down — 
Leaving dead ashes only, ashes shaming 

All that was vivid — ashes dimly brown. 
We will have memories as sweet as flowers. 

We who have left, untouched, Fate's cup of woe; 
Kiss me once more to bridge life's aching hours — 

Love of my heart — the time has come to go ! 



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WHEN I AM OLD— 

When I am old and drenched in worlds of sadness, 

And wear a lacy cap upon my head; 
When, looking past the future's singing gladness, 

I linger, wistful, in the years long dead. 
When I am old, and young folk all about me. 

Speak softly of religion, when they speak. 
When parties are a grand success without me; 

And when my laugh is fluttering and weak — 

Will I then be content to raise my glances. 
Serenely to the cloud-entangled sky? 

And will I be content to watch at dances, 
Without a heartbreak, as the hours pass by? 

Or when I see young lovers fingers twine. 

Will I remeTriber, dear, your lips on mine ? 



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THE REFUGE 

We hurried, once, down the purple road. 

When a storm hung low in the sky; 
And we gained the door of Love's abode 

As the silver rain flashed by. 
Our steps rang out as we crossed the sill, 

And the place was dimly bright, 
And even our hearts seemed strangely still. 

While our searching hands clasped tight. 

We waited there while the wind moaned past 

And the thunder crashed in the air; 
And the door of Love's abode blew fast, 

But we didn't know — or care ! 
For we heard a song in the driving rain. 

And the sky seemed warmly gray; 
And the tempest rang with a mad refrain. 

And the world seemed years away. 



We have wondered far from the road of dreams. 

We have crept from the house of love; 
And the scorching sun of the noonday gleams 

From the pitiless sky above. 
But once, ah, once — in that dusky place, 

When the lightning flashed through the air, 
I saw its flame on your upturned face, 

And its glow on your vivid hair. 

We have strayed away — we have strayed away— - 

For the world is all too wide. . . . 
But once I came through the stormy day, 

And you walked, proud, at my side. 
And, oh, for the feel of the rain again. 

And, oh, for the purple road. 
And, oh, for the joy and the pain again. 

That we knew in Love's abode! 



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TO DREAM ALONE. . . . 

How long the days may seem, how long each night, 
(And yet, how short the evenings used to be!) 
How strange it is that I can never see, 

Warm pictures in the hearth that glows so bright. 

We used to watch the laughing firelight, 
And build dream castles in it — Ah, but we 
Built castles everywhere ! And now the sea 

Is swept between us. You have gone to fight. 

And I — I wait and try to dream alone, 

And try to smile, to dance and laugh and sing; 
And, somehow, cannot think of anything, 

But just the thrilling roughness of your tone. 

The light that lights your eyes, your lips that 
cling. 

And love — the flame of love that we have known ! 



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NOW I MAY SING OF SADNESS. . . . 

Knowing, dear, that my whole heart lies at rest 
Deep in the heart of you, I may sing a song 
Telling the tale of bitterness and wrong. . . . 

Knowing, dear, that my head lay on your breast 

Only last night, I may sing of dreams that died. 
And hopes that never were born, and faith be- 
trayed, 
Of weary feet that have left the road and strayed 

Out of the narrow way, to pastures wide. 

Dear, when my songs were gay, I did not know 
Whether you cared. And so I had to sing 
Gladly, to mask grim fear — I had to bring 

Sunlight to point the path that I must go ! 

Now that the clouds are silver sweet above, 
I may sing songs of sadness. I am blessed 
Knowing, dear, that my whole heart lies at rest. 

Knowing, dear, that I have your love — your love! 



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Knowing that you have walhed her muddy roads 

Wearily, after hitter times of fighting; 
Knowing that you have carried heavy loads 

Over her hills — while I, at home, was lighting 
Dim yellow candles on the mantel shelf. . . . 
Knowing you suffered agony and loss. 
Under the very shadow of a Cross — 
France holds a hit of you — and of myself! 

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WHEN WAE CAME 

War came, one day, and drew ns close together. 

Although it swept us many miles apart; 
The love that lay as lightly as a feather. 

Now rests, a precious weight, upon my heart. 
And all the dreams I dreamed for just the dreaming. 

Have taken on a meaning that is new; 
And somehow all the lonely world is seeming. 

To cry aloud my aching need of you! 

Because you were so much a part of living, 

Like sunshine and the freshness of the air. 
The priceless gift of faith that you were giving 

Seemed small to me. Scarce knowing you were 
there 
I took your heart-strings in my careless fingers, 

And played a song as light as summer dew. 
And yet, today, its wistful echo lingers 

And fills an empty world with thoughts of you. 

I did not think that I would ever miss you, 

I did not dream the time would come to be 
When I would long to touch your hand, to kiss you — 

To hear your voice say tender words to me. 
I did not know that I would wonder whether 

My head would rest, once more, against your 
heart. . . . 
War came, my dear, and drew us close together. 

Although it swept us many miles apart! 



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WHEN YOU WENT BY 

I stood in the rain and watched you pass, 

I stood in the blinding rain. ... 

And I thought of a fragrant summer night, 

When the room was glowing with candlelight, 

And a shower beat on the window glass 

With a wonderful, low refrain. 

I thought of your arms that held me tight. 

And your eyes that were near and warmly bright; 

I thought of — all, as I watched you pass. 

And my soul was wrung with pain. 

"Tramp, tramp, tramp !" rang your column's tread. 
"Tramp, tramp, tramp !" through the street. 
(Ah, dear, it was summer once, and there 
Were flower scents on the misty air — 
Honeysuckle and mignonette, poignantly, sadly 

sweet ! ) 
"Tramp, tramp, tramp !" rang your column's tread. 
And my eyes were dim as I bowed my head; 
And my heart seemed broken and old and dead. 
Under your marching feet. 

I stood in the rain and watched you pass — 

There in the autumn rain. . . . 

And I thought, my dear, of the night when you 

Had kissed me first. (Ah, your eyes were blue, 

And very tender, and Heaven-true, 

There in the candlelight ! ) 

I thought of a misty summer night. 

When a shower fell on the vivid grass 

(There, through the rain, I watched you pass!) 

I thought of a mystic summer night 

That never may come again. 

"Tramp, tramp, tramp F* rang your column's tread, 
"Tramp, tramp, tramp!" in the street; 
And I tried to smile — with a lifted head — 
But my heart lay, crtished, at your feet! 

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IN MEMORIAM 
To an American Aviator 

He went to battle in the mist-hung sky, 

Like some gold-hearted bird with pinions strong; 

He went with courage, with a snatch of song, 
In all his splendid youth ! And God on high 
Looked down with love to watch him dip and fly. 

Then lifted him to where the brave belong. 

He went to right a bleeding nation's wrong. 
And proved that he was not afraid to die ! 

So we, who stare across the lonely hours, 
Must only think of that great gift he gave ; 
Must think of other lives that his will save ; 
And know that, when the tender, healing showers 
Have fallen in a stranger-land, the flowers 

Will bloom, like prayers, upon a hero's grave! 



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A PEASANT GIEL SINGS 

Somewhere, Out There, he is— just a boy, that's all— 
(Laughter sparkled in his eyes — he was always 

singing ! ) 
Just a boy who answered when he heard his country's 

call; 
,( Somewhere, Out There, he is— how my thoughts go 
winging — ) 

Eeady to do or dare, 
(Like sunlight was his hair,) 
Just a boy, a laughing boy, 

Somewhere, Out There. 

Idle my wheel, to-day, hushed is it's spinning — 
(Ah, but his eyes were blue — blue as the sea — ) 
Somewhere, Out There, he is . . . Losing — or win- 
ning! 
(Boy with the carefree heart, come back to me!) 
Blood red the cannon's flare, 
(God, can you hear my prayer ?) 
Keep him, my boy, from harm — 

Somewjiere, Out There. 



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TOGETHER 

They lay together in the sun and waited for the end; 
Side by side, together, bearded foe and friends- 
Jean from the pleasant fields of singing. Southern 

France, 
Jean from the poppy fields sighing with romance; 
Fritz from a Fatherland he blindly loved and served, 
Fritz whose soft-nosed bullets had never flinched nor 

swerved; 
And Peter, whose tired eyes were wide and deep and 

brown, 
Peter from Delancey Street, in New Yorh town. 

They didn't speak, these three, 

They didn't know each other's tongue; 

And, then, 

When men 

Whose songs are nearly sung 

Are lying side by side. 

Their breathing not so . . . free. 

The gulf is rather wide. 

In the sun they lay there; 
And Fritz's hair 
Was very bright. 
He was a foe 
To kill on sight — 
And yet the light 
Upon his hair was so. 
So very fair. . . . 



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Jean found himself remembering her hair; 

Of palest gold it was, a magic snare 

To net men's soul in ! She had bade him go, 

Sobbing, "Je t'aime" — which means, "I love you so !^ 

Her hair — her hands — her lips, 

Eed as a sunset cloud when daytime slips 

Into the night. No, redder ! 

Like a flower 
That blooms upon the earth for just an hour; 
A poppy flower, fragile, soft. . . . Her lips 
Eed as the heart-blood of a man, that drips 
Into eternity. . . . 

Jean sighed, 

And died. 

Perhaps her lips were very near — who knows? 

When eyes must close 

Against the sun, and life, who cares? 

One only dares 

To wonder! 

Fritz lay still. 

He felt the strength, the faith, the stubborn will, 

Drop from him like worn garments, till he lay 

Half-frightened in the burning light of day. 

He had killed many, yes. ... 

From under 

His tunic, gropingly, he drew a cross; 

He wondered would it make, for her, the loss 

A little less? 

Ah, to press 

His bearded lips once more upon her cheek. 

To hear her speak. . . . 



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Yes, he had killed, and killed — 

And he had thrilled 

To do it. . . . 

But just to sit 

Beside her, in the shade. 

That had been paradise ! 

Her soft arms laid 

About his throat. . . . 

They strangled him — 

His eyes grew dim. ... 

He choked— once . . . twice. . . . 

Peter from Delancey Street, laughed with white- 
lipped pluck. 

"Dyin' side o' him!" he coughed. "Ain't it rotten 
luck! 

"Poor guy, they got him, though — got him same as 
me. . . ." 

Peter, from Delancey Street, stopped talking sud- 
denly. 

He saw — 

A candy store. 

On the busy, smelly corner of a crowded city 

slum ; 
He heard the hum 
Of traffic in the street. 
The sound of feet 
Upon the pavement; and he saw. 
Behind the counter there. 
The Girl, She wore 
Her hair 

Plastered tight to her little shell-like ears. 
He felt her tears 
Upon his face 

The night he told her that he'd left his place, 
His steady paying job, to go and fight. 



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"Good night!" 
He'd said to her. 
"Somebody's gotta go ! 
Yerself, you know. 
We gotta stir 

T'lick them fellers Over There !" 
Her slicked-back hair 

Had roughened up against his khaki sleeve. 
And she had cried: 
"Dear, must you leave?" 
And he had dried 

Her eyes, and smudged the powder on her 
nose. . . , 

"Here goes !" 

Said Peter of Delancey Street. 

He saw 

A candy store — 

A city slum, a girl with plastered hair. 

Who waited there. . . . 

They lay together in the sun — bravely to the end. 
Side by side, together, bearded foe and friend. 
Jean from the poppy fields, sighing with romance, 
Jean from the laughter-lilting fields of Southern 

France; 
Fritz from a Fatherland he blindly loved and served, 
Fritz, tvhose faith, although betrayed, had never 

flinched or swerved; 
And Peter, whose tired eyes were questiovoing and 

brown, 
Peter, from Delancey Street, in New York town. 



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JIM-DOG 

He wasn't, well, a fancy kind o' dog — 

Not Jim! 

But, oh, I sorter couldn't seem ter help 

A-lovin' him. 

He always seemed ter understand. 

He'd rub his nose against my hand 

If I was feelin' blue or sad. 

Or if my thoughts was pretty bad; 

An' how he'd bark an' frisk an' play 

When I was gay! 

A soldier's dog don't have much time ter whine 

Like little pets a-howlin' at th' moon. 

A soldier's dog is bound ter learn, right soon. 

That war is war, an' what a steady line 

Of men in khaki means. 

(What, dogs don't know? 
You bet they do ! Jim-dog, he had ter go 
Along th' trenches oftentimes at night; 
He seemed ter sense it when there was a fight 
A-brewin'. Oh, I guess he knew, all right!) 
I was a soldier, an' Jim-dog was mine. 

Ah, what's the use? 

There never was another dog like him. 

Why, on th' march I'd pause an' call — "Hey, Jim !" 

An' he'd be there, his head tipped on one side, 

A-lookin' up at me with love an' pride. 

His tail a-waggin', an' his ears raised high. . . . 

I wonder why my Jim-dog had ter die? 

He was a friend ter folks; he didn't bite; 

He never snapped at no one in th' night; 

He didn't hate a soul; an' he was game! 

An' yet ... a spark o' light, a dartin' flame 

Across th' dark, a sneaky bit o' lead, 

An' he was . . . dead ! 



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They say there ain't no heaven-land for him, 

'Cause dogs is dogs, an' haven't any right; 

But let me tell yer this; without my Jim 

Th' very shinin' streets would seem less bright! 

An' somehow I'm a-thinkin' that if he 

Could come at that last stirrin' bugle call 

Up to th' gates o' gold aside of me. 

Where God stands smilin' welcome to us all. 

An' I said, 'father, here's my dog . . . here's 

Jim," 
They'd find some corner, touched with love, fer him ! 



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SIX SONNETS 
I. Somehow 

Somehow I never thought that you would go, 

Not even when red war swept through the land — 
I somehow thought, because I loved you so. 

That you would stay. I did not understand 
That something stronger than my love could come, 

To draw you, half -reluctant, from my heart; 
I never thought the call of fife and drum 

Would rend our cloak of happiness apart! 

And yet, you went . . . And I — I did not weep — 
I smiled, instead, and brushed the tears aside. 

And yet, when night-time comes, I cannot sleep 
But silent lie, while longing fights with pride — • 

You are my man, the foe you fight my foe. 
And yet — / never thought that you ivould go! 



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II. I Wonder 

I wonder if you dream, across the night, 

When watchfires cut the vivid dark in twain, 
Of long dim rooms, and yellow candlelight, 

And gardens drenched in vaguely perfumed rain? 
I wonder if you think, when shot and shell 

And molten fire are singing songs of hate, 
Of that last throbbing moment of farewell 

When, in your arms, I promised you to wait? 

I wonder, should grim death reach out his hand, 
And speak, above the strife, of peace and rest; 

If you, alone in that dark stranger land. 

Would feel again my head upon your breast? 

And if, as light and love and living slips, • 

Your prayer would be my kiss upon your lips. . . . 



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III. Some Day 

Some day when on exultant feet you come 

Back through the streets that echo at your tread — 
My soul will thrill to hear the throbbing drum, 

And yet, perhaps, I'll sit with drooping head, 
Not caring, quite, to meet your steady gaze, 

Not daring, quite, to look into your eyes; 
Afraid because a weary stretch of days, 

Each one a million years, between us lies. 

My heart — my heart is ever yours to hold. 
And yet, while I have waited here for you, 

You. have seen faith betrayed, and brave youth sold. 
You have seen meadows drenched in bloody dew — 

It may have changed you, and your eyes may be 

A little harder when they look at me! 



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IV. DREAM 

Sometimes I dream that you are back with me. 

And that with hands together clasped we go 
Like little children, young and glad and free, 

A-down a magic road we used to know. 
Sometimes I dream your eyes upon my face. 

And feel your fingers softly touch my hair. . . c 
And when I wake from dreaming all the place. 

Seems lonelier because you are not there. 

What is a dream ? Not very much, they say, 

An idle vision made in castled Spain- 
Well, maybe they are right. . . . And yet, today, 
When all the warring world was swept with pain. 
The suffering and sorrow ceased to be, 
Because I dreamed that you were back with me! 



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V. Understanding 

Now, when I stand in some great crowded place, 
I see the souls of other women stare 
Out of their eyes — And I can glimpse the care 

And worry that has banished light and grace 

From every life. Upon each woman-face 
I see the mark of tears, the hint of prayer 
That, one short year ago, had not been there — 

I see what time will never quite erase ! 

Before you left, I did not notice eyes — 

Because I knew that I might touch your hand, 
I did not dream the dread that swept our land. . 

Ah, dear, the months have made me very wise ! 
Now, one with everything, I understand. 

And heart meets heart and I can sympathize. 



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VI. The Waking 

Now war is over and a world set free, 

And youth returns, triumphant, to our land — 
And dear-heart, you'll be coming back to me. 

With eager lips, and tender outstretched hand ! 
You will be coming as you came of old, 

At evening time, with laughter lilting gay; 
Glad of the little things that life may hold — 

And I will meet you in the self same way. . . . 

Yes, in the shadows by my oaken door, 
I will be waiting as I used to wait — 

And I will feel that you are come, before 
I hear the clicking of the garden gate. 

And, in the darkness there, my pulse will leap, 

Eeviving dreams that long have lain asleep ! 



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AFTER PEACE 

"I wonder what they're doin' home tonight?'' 

Jim said — 

We sat there, in the yeller firelight, 

There, in a hotise in France — 

Some of us, maybe thinkin' of romance — 

Some of us missin' buddies who was dead — 

And some just dreamin' 

Sorter hardly seemin' 

Ter make the' dream come clear. 

An' then — Jim spoke — 

"I wonder what they're doin' home ternight?" 

Says Jim — 

An' some of us felt, well — as if we'd like 

Ter smother him ! 

An' some of us tried hard-like not ter choke, 

Th' smoke 

Was pretty thick an' black! 

A-thinkin' back, 

Across th' ocean I could sort of see 

A little house that means just all ter me 

And, though nobody said a word I knew 

Their thoughts was goin' on th' self-same track — 

Thoughts do 

Out here, in France. 

Home — Home — No wonder that we all was still — 

For one of us was thinkin' of a hill. 

With pine trees on it black against th' moon — 

And one of us was dreaming of a town. 

All drab an' brown — 

An' one of us was lookin' — far an' high 

Ter some one who had gone back home too soon 

To that real home that is beyond the sky. 



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Nobody of us spoke fer quite a while — 

We didn't smile — 

We just sat still an' wondered when there'd be 

An order for ter send us home — 

Back 'crost the sea. 

Th' war was won — 

An' we was done! 

We wanted faces that we loved an' knew. 

An' voices too — 

We sat an' watched th' dancin' fire fling 

Its shadders on th' floor — 

Bright shapes, an' dim. 

An' then Jim coughed as if his throat was sore. 

An'— "Say— let's sing!" 

Says Jim. 



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FROM THE DECK OF A TRANSPOET 
(A Returning Soldier Speaks) 

I am coming back with a singing soul through the 

surge of the splendid sea, 
Coming back to the land called home, and the love 

that used to be — 
I am coming back through a flash of spray, through 

a conquered tempest's hum, 
I am coming back, I am coming back. . . . But, 

God, do I want to come? 

I have heard the shriek of the great shells speak to 

the dawn of a flaming day ; 
And a growling gun when the fight was won, and the 

twilight flickered gray, 
I have seen men die with their chins raised high, and 

a curse that was half a prayer — 
I have fought alone when a comrade's groan was 

tense onrihe blinding air. 

I have tramped a road when a burning load was 

strapped to my aching back. 
Through miles of mud that was streaked with blood, 

when my closing eyes turned back — 
I have cried aloud to a heedless crowd of a God that 

they could not know. 
And have knelt at night when the way was bright 

with a rocket's sullen glow. 

I am going home through the whirling foam — home 
to her arms stretched wide — 

I am going back to the beaten track and the sheltered 
fireside. 

With gasping breath I have sneered at death, and 
have mocked at a shell's swift whirr. 

And safe again, through the years of pain, I am go- 
ing back — to her! 

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I am coming back with a singing soul through the 

surge of the splendid sea, 
Coming back — hut my singing soul will never he 

quite free — 
For I have killed, and my heart has thrilled to the 

call of the battle hum. . . . 
I am coming back to the used-to-be — But, God, do I 

want to come? 



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TIM— MY BUNKIE 

I met Tim th' other day 

On Broadway ; 

Hadn't seen him since he fell. 

Covered like with streaks of blood, 

In th' Argonne's battle hell. 

Tim an' me was bunkies; we 

Marched together 

Through th' water an' th' slime — 

Sunny France, hey? We seen weather 

That we hadn't dreamed could be 

Anywhere or any time. 

We had fought — well, hand to hand. 

Over miles o' broken land. 

Through th' Yesle, an' by th' Aisne, 

When th' shrapnel fell like rain — 

Tim an' me was bunkies — see? 

Smilin' sort o' cuss was Tim; 
Never seen th' beat o' him ! 
He could whistle when a pack 
Was like lead upon his back; 
He could smile with blistered feet; 
Never swore at monkey meat. 
Or at cooties, or th' drill; 
Always laughin' — never still — • 
That was Tim ! 

Say, th' fellers loved that boy! 
Chaplain said that he "was joy 
All incarnate — " Sounds all right. 
But th' men said he was white. 
That meant most to us, I'd say ! 
Why, we never seen th' day 
When we wouldn't help a guy. 
If he had a franc he'd buy 
Chocolate or chow for us, 
Gen'rus little smilin' cuss — 
That was Tim ! 

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When they got him^ I can see 
Even now, th' way he slipped 
To th' ground beside o' me. 
Eed blood dripped 
From his tunic an' his chin. 
But he choked out, "Fellers, win! 
"Me, I don't much matter, grin!" 

Sure we had ter leave him lay; 

War is always that-a-way; 

An' we thought o'course he'd die. 

Maybe that's the reason why 

We could fight th' way we did ; 

Why we found th' guns thejj hid; 

Why we broke their line in two, 

Whistlin' a tune he knew 

All th' time we pushed 'em back, 

Crowdin' on 'em whack f er whack ! 

I seen Tim th' other day 

On Broadway; 

He had lef one arm in France, 

But his eyes was all a-dance 

When he seen me face t' face. 

"Say," he shouts, "ain't this some place? 

Ain't it great th' war is through? 

Glad I seen it, though; ain't you?" 

Smilin' sort o' little cuss, 

Meetin' me without a fuss — 

Tim, my bunkie, livin' ! . . . Tim ! 

That's him ! 



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A PRAYER FOR OUR BOYS RETURNING 

God, bring them back just as they went away; 

A little wiser, maybe, but unchanged 
In all the vital things — let them today 

Take up the lives that war has disarranged. 
Let them renew the youth they laid aside 

To fight their battles in the world of men, 
God, bring to life their little dreams that died, 

And build their altars new again, and then — 

Give them the vivid youth that they have sought for 

Through bloody mists on bloody fields of strife; 
Show them the gallant truth that they have fought 
for; 
Show them, anew, the better things of life. 
God of the hosts, blot out the months of pain — 
And let them have their boyhood back again. 

Amen. 



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I. After Peace 

The city thrills once more to joyous singing; 

Glad laughter sounds again upon the street. 

And music throbs again, until young feet 
Trip merrily upon their way; the ringing 
Of hour chimes are gallant voices, flinging 

Their challenges through each crowded space, to 
greet 

Old friends who linger where they used to meet 
With other friends long gone. . . . The summer, 
bringing 

The light of peace, has seemed to fill the city. 
With happiness that echoes far and wide 
In sounds of joy ; there seems no room for sorrow — 
Yet, like a minor chord submersed in pity. 
There steals above the music of tomorrow. 
The weary footsteps of the ones who died. 



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II. The Eue de la Paix — (a Street op Jewels) 

The windows glow with many jewels, with rubies 
fire-entangled. 
And glowing bits of emerald, and diamonds like 
the dew — 
(But, iParis, can you quite forget the bodies lying 
mangled 
Beneath the snow on Flanders fields — your lost 
who call to you?). 

The windows of each little shop are gay with gem- 
like laughter, 
With rings to fit milady's hand, and drops to deck 
her ear; 
(But, Paris can you quite forget Verdun, and Ypres, 
and — after ? 
And, far beneath the sounds of mirth, one won- 
ders what you hear.) 

The windows glow with countless jewels, the shop- 
girls stop to wonder. 
The little shopgirls who are still, so many, dressed 
in black — 
(But, oh, the saddened hearts of them no doubt are 
lying under 
Some sandy stretch along the Marne, where grim 
defeat turned back ! ) 

The windows gleam enticingly, and eyes light up to 
see them, 
For Paris thrills to loveliness, as Paris always 
thrilled— 
(Oh, God of beauty, touch the lives that war has 
crushed, and free them 
From broken dreams, an empty faith, and hopes 
forever stilled!) 



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III. The Flower Wagons 

Violets and mignonette, crowded close together, 

Crowded close together on the corner of each street, 
Through the chilling dampness of the misty weather, 
Violets and mignonette — ah, so close together — 
Making all the Paris day colorful and sweet ! 

Roses faintly touched with pink; see, a soldier 
lingers 

Close beside the flower-stand, dreaming of the day 
When she broke a single bud with her slender fingers. 
Pressed it to her wistful mouth — see, a soldier lingers 

Dreaming of a summertime very far away. 

Lilacs white and pure and new, fragrant as the 
morning — 

One pale widow, passing by, pauses for a space, 
Thinking of the lilac tree that once grew, adorning 
All a little cottage home, in life's fragrant morning; 

Of a lilac tree that grew in a garden place. 

Pansies for a thought of love, lilies for love's sorrow. 
Bay leaves green as hopes that live, berries red 
and brown ; 
Flowers vivid for a day, gone upon the morrow, 
Flowers that are sweet as faith, that are sad as 
sorrow — 
Flowers for the weary souls of a weary town. 

Violets and mignonette, crowded close together. 
Crowded close together on the* corner of each 
street ; 
Singing of the summertime, through the misty 

weather, 
Violets and mignonette — ah, so close together — 
Making all the Paris day colorful and sweet! 



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IV. Across the Yeaes 

(Marie Antoinette walked down the steps of a certain 
Chapel on her ivay to the guillotine.) 

They say a queen once walked along the marble steps 

with grace, 
To meet grim death by guillotine — a smile was on 

her face, 
A smile of scorn that lifted her above the howling 

crowd, 
A smile that mocked at pallid fear — a sraile serene 

and proud. 

Yes, it was Marie Antoinette — she walked with 

steady tread. 
She sauntered down the marble steps with proudly 

lifted head; 
And there were those among the crowd who watched 

with indrawn breath. 
To see a queen walk out with smiles to keep a tryst 

with death ! 

I stood beside those marble steps just yesterday, and 

saw, 
A bride upon a soldier's arm — a poilu brave who 

wore 
A Croix de Guerre upon his breast — and oh, they 

smiled above 
The busy throng that hurried by, unconscious of their 

love. 

And though, across the mist of years, I glimpsed a 

fair queen's face, 
A face that smiled, but scornfully, above her land's 

disgrace — 
I will remember, on those steps, the little new-made 

wife. 
Who came, her eyes all filled with trust, to keep 

her tryst with life. 

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V. Sunlight 

The sun shines over Paris fitfully, 

As if it really were afraid to shine; 

And clouds of gray mist curl and twist and twine 
Across the sky. As far as one can see 
The streets are wet with rain, and suddenly 

New rain falls in a straight, relentless line — 

And silver drops, like needles, slim and fine, 
Drip from the branches of each gaunt-limbed tree. 

Ah, Paris, can the very wistful sky 

Look down into the center of your heart. 

That has been bruised by war, and torn apart — 

The once glad heart that has been taught to sigh ? 

The sun is like your smile that flutters by 

Like some lost dream, before the tear-drops start. 



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VI. The Latin Quarter — After 

They were the brave ones, the gallant ones, the 
laughing ones, 
Who were the very first to go — to heed their coun- 
try's call; 
They were the joyous ones, the carefree ones, the 
chaffing ones. 
Who were the first to meet the foe, who were the 
first to fall. 

Artists and poets, they; the talented and youthful 
ones — 
All the world before their feet, their feet that loved 
to stray; 
We have heard about their lives; stories crude, and 
truthful ones 
Of the carefree lives they lived, in the yesterday. 

Ah, the Latin Quarter now; boarded up, the most 
of it. 
Studios are bare, this year, and little models sigh. 
For the ones who died for France, died and are the 
boast of it. 
Died as they had always lived, with their heads 
held high ! 

But a spark of it remains, in forgotten places, 
For I saw a blinded boy strumming a guitar. 

Playing with his face a-smile, with the arts and 
graces 
Of a troubadour of old. He had wandered far. 



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Through the flaming hell of war — wandered far and 
home again, 
To the corner that he loved when his eyes could 
see; 
And he played a jolly tune, he who may not roam 
again, 
Played it on an old guitar — played it smilingly. 

And I saw another sit at a tiny table. 

In a dingy eating house; he had laughed and 
drawn 
Sketches on the ragged cloth, boasting he was able 
Still to draw as well as most — with two fingers 
gone. . . . 



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VII. NoTKE Dame 

Through colored glass, on burnished walls, 

Soft as a psalm, the sunlight falls; 

And, in the corners, cool and dim, 

Its glow is like a vesper hymn. 

And, arch by arch, the ceilings high 

Eise like a hand stretched toward the sky 

To touch God's hand. On every side 

Is misty silence; and the wide 

Untroubled spaces seem to tell 

That Peace is come — and all is well! 

A slender woman kneels in prayer; 

The sunlight slants across her hair; 

A pallid child in rusty black 

Stands in the doorway, looking back. . . . 

A poilu gropes (his eyes are wide) 

Along the altar rail. The tide 

Of war has cast him brokenly 

Upon the shore of life. I see 

A girl in costly furs, who cries 

Against her muff ; I see her rise 

And hurry out. Two tourists pause 

Beside the grated chancel doors, 

To wonder and to speculate ; 

To stoop and read a carven date. 



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In uniform the nations come; 

Their voices are a steady hum 

Until they feel some subtle thrill 

That makes them falter, holds them still — 

Bronzed boys, who shrugged and laughed at death. 

They stand today with indrawn breath, 

Half mystified. 

The colors steal 
Into my heart, and I can feel 
The rapture that the artists knew 
Who, centuries before me, drew 
Their very souls into the glass 

Of every window Hours pass 

Like beads of amber that are strung 
Upon a rainbow, frail and young. 

Through mellow glass, on hallowed walls, 
The twilight, like faint music, falls; 
And in each corner, cool and dim. 
The music is a splendid hymn. 
And, arch on arch, the ceilings high 
Seem like a hand stretched toward the sky 
To touch a Hand that clasped a Cross — 
For France, new-risen from the loss. 
And pain and fear of hattle-hell. 
Knows Peace, at least, and all is well! 



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YIII. Sunday Moening 

The streets are silent, and the church bells ring 

Across the city like the silver chime 
Of some forgotten memory. They bring 

The phantom of another, sweeter time, 
When war was all undreamed. They seem to say, 

"Come back, come back, across the years of strife 
"To One who reaches out a Hand today, 

"A Hand that brings your dead again to life V 

A little white-haired woman hurries past, 
A tiny prayer-book in one wrinkled hand; 

Her eyes are calm, as one who knows at last 
What only age may really understand; 

That, as a rainbow creeps across the rain. 

The God of Paris smiles above its pain ! 



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SONGS FEOM FRANCE 
Scabs 

Summer sweeps, like sad laughter, over France, 

Touching the fields with flower-tinted mirth; 

Bringing its wistful gladness to an earth 
That has been stabbed with sorrow's bitter lance; 
Bringing again the hint of old romance. 

Bringing again the magic of re-birth ; 

Paying again the price that youth was worth — 
Over dim wayside mounds the grasses dance! 

Where there were shell holes summer sends, un- 
heeding, 

Blossoms to deck the broken country side; 
Where, in another season, heroes, bleeding. 

Fell for the cause of righteousness, and died, 
Green creeper twines its vivid arms, half-pleading. 

But there are scars that summer cannot hide! 



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FEOM PARIS TO CHATEAU THIERRY 

The road winds out its weary way, 
Where fields are torn with sorrow; 

It is a road of yesterday. 

That dreams no fair tomorrow. 

It is silent, saddened road, 

A lonely road to follow; 
For in its dust red rivers flowed. 

And now, from every hollow. 
The crows rise up in sullen flight 
• The crows that, blackly flying 
Against the skyline, speak of night. 

And bitterness, and dying. 

It is a road that creeps around 

Farmhouses that lie broken; 
That pauses at each shallow mound. 

At every blood-stained token, 
A helmet by the way one sees ; 

A pistol, bent and rusty; 
And hung between two shattered trees> 

A coat mildewed and musty. 
It is a sad, forgotten road. 

But oh, it tells the story 
Of youth that bore another's load 

Without a thought of glory ! 
For every tattered homestead cries 

Of vengeance that descended; 
And memory that never dies. 

From hearts that stay unmended! 

The road winds out its weary way, 

A lonely way to follow; 
And crows rise black against the day 

From every tree and hollow. 



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A RUINED CHURCH 

They could not take the living God away, 
Although they left His altar blank and bare; 
Their ruthless hands could never rend and tear 
More than the walls, they could not hope to sway 
The utter faith that is the nation^s heart; 
They could not bring a real destruction where 
Hymn music had been softly wont to play ! 
They smothered beauty, and tore hope apart; 
But in the house of One who is supreme. 
The marks they left will now be sanctified; 
The broken walls, when war is but a dream, 
Will be a monument to those who died; 
And every shell-torn scar will stand for One 
Whose hands were scarred, the Christ men crucified ! 

I think, perhaps, the very morning sun. 
Will slant more gently through the broken tower — 
And, in good season, that some tender flower 
Will bloom beside the ruined threshold, where 
Folk paused before they entered in to prayer. . . . 



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CHILD FACES 

Child faces saddened, older than they should be, 

And wiser than a lived-out span of years; 
One wonders what those self same faces would be, 

If they had never looked on pain — if tears 
Had never been their portion; if the morrow. 

Had never held the pallid ghost of care — 
Child faces, graven deep with worlds of sorrow. 

Until the light of childhood is not there! 

Child faces, once agleam with carefree laughter, 

Wide eyes, where smiles like baby rainbows grew; 
They are the heritage of ever after, 

They are the dreams that never will come true. 
They are the words of fate that have been spoken. 

And when the tumult of the war is gone. 
They will remind a world that hearts were broken, 

For, in their souls, France goes to meet her dawn ! 



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AFTER HEARING MUSIC COMING FROM A 
DEVASTATED FARMHOUSE 

Just a little wisp of song played softly in the twilight. 

Such a happy little song — and oh, the dusk is gray ! 

Such a joyous little song, and oh, the night is 

coming — 

Coming with the bitter chill that marks the death 

of day. 

Almost like a dance it is, it holds no hint of sorrow, 
Almost like a waltz it is, to set the pulse a-thrill; 

Not a hint of tears in it — and oh, the night is 
coming — 
Coming like a purple shroud across the purple hill ! 

Sad the little farmhouse is, the doors swing on their 
hinges, 

All the windows look like wounds, pitiful and bare. 
And a shell has torn a gash in the broken roof of it, 

But the music lilts along like a happy prayer. 

Do pale ghostly fingers play on a ghostly violin? 

(War has swept the countryside of the songs it 
knew ! ) 
Merry is the little tune — not a wistful questioning — 

Merry with a rosy thrill of a dream come true. 

Just a little wisp of song played softly in the twilight. 

Such a happy little song — and oh, the dusk is gray ! 

Such a joyous little song, and oh, the night is 

coming — 

Coming with the bitter chill that marks the death 

of day! 



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RETUEN 

Now that the tumult of the war is over, 

The fairy folk are coming back to France; 
They push their way through tangled grass and 
clover, 

To find the ring where once they used to d^nce. 
They come half -wistfully, the little people, 

Through broken town, and battered market place, 
They come past shell-torn church with shattered 
steeple, 

They come as smiles come to a tear-stained face. 

They come with packs of dreams, with love and 
laughter, 

They come with songs rolled snugly up in sacks; 
They come with promises for ever after. 

Tied neatly into bundles on their backs! 
They bring the seeds of magic so that flowers, 

The flowers of new happiness and mirth. 
May bloom, once more, in sweet enchanted bowers. 

Above the heart-ache of a tortured earth. 

Now that the angry powder smoke has vanished. 

The fairy folk are coming as of yore. 
The fairy folk that hate and war had banished . . . 

They pause beside a loosely swinging door, 
To set it right on hinges that were oreaking, 

They lift an old rag doll with tender care. 
And hurry on — because their hearts are aching, 

For one-time childish faces that were there. 



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They cross forgotten meadows in the gloaming, 

Through forest aisles at even-time they creep ; 
Where trenches were, their little feet 8 re roaming, 

And where the heroes of the conflict sleep, 
They stop, a moment, wistful — and their singing 

Dies down into the semblance of a prayer; 
And tiny bells in far-off elf land ringing, 

Sound, like a silver promise, on the air. 

Now that the tumult of the wcur is~over. 

Once more the country wakens to romance; 

For, through the tangle of the grass and clover. 
The fairy folk are coming back to France. 



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THE PHOENIX 

The ruined wheat fields lying in the sun 
Will smile again, e'er many seasons pass; 
The crooning breeze will sway the golden grass. 
The way it did before a blazing gun, 
Mowed down the meadow poppies in red heaps; 
And battered villages will rise anew. 
And homes will stand where one-time gardens grew. 
And, in dim forests where an army sleeps. 
The little birds will sing their evening songs. 
The way they did before a blasting rain, 
Of shrapnel cut their tiny nests in twain; 
For France will rise, triumphant, from her wrongs — 

Yes, France will rise once more in faith, and pave 
Her roads anew with shattered stones of life, 
Her songs will rise, once more, above the strife — 

But what about the hearts that gave — and gave! 



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A PRAYER ON EASTER FOR OUR BOYS 
KILLED IN ACTION 

Dear God, they will not come again, those lads of 
ours. 
Who went to fight with honor's foe across the sea — 
Who died with eyes set straight ahead, amid the 
showers 
Of shrapnel, as they cleared a path to victory. 
They will not come again , . . And it is Easter 
weather, 
And all the world is waking to the call of life, 
But they lie sleeping. Over There, our lads, together. 
Who died before their hearts could know the end 
of strife. 

Dear God, they will not come again, those lads of 
ours. 
Who left this land so gallantly to do their best — 
And so I ask that You will send gay springtime 
flowers. 
To deck each shell-torn meadow where their bodies 
rest. 
I ask that You will let them hear the joyous singing, 
Of some deep-throated bird whose heart tones 
throb and swell; 
God, let them feel the thrill that Easter time is 
bringing, 
That death is only life asleep — and all is well ! 

Amen. 



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INDEPENDENCE DAY— 1919 

Over the mists of a century they come, and their 

tramping feet 
Are light as the dust on the broad highway, or the 

wind that sways in the wheat; 
Out of the haze of the years between their shadowy 

hands stretch wide 
To welcome the heroes home again who have fought 

for their cause and died. 

They went to battle at Concord Bridge, and they fell 

on Bunker Hill; 
The odds were great, but they struggled on with a 

stubborn Yankee will; 
They lay in the fields at Lexington when the sun in 

the west was red. 
And the next year's violets grew on the spot where 

their valiant blood was shed. 

But they won in the end — with their broken guns 

and without much food to spare. 
Won at the end of a bitter war, by means that they 

knew were fair; 
And some of them wandered back to their plows, and 

some lay wrapped in the loam, 
And slept the sleep of the fearless heart that has 

fought at home — for home ! 

Fought for their homes, at home, they did — but these 

other boys today 
Fought for the homes of stranger folk three thousand 

miles away; 
Fought for the honor of the world, and were not 

afraid to die 
In a muddy trench, in a foreign land, and under a 

foreign sky ! 

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They fought on the Marne, at Belleau Wood; they 

swept through the mad Argonne; 
Chateau-Thierry was theirs to take ; they took it and 

then surged on ; 
And now that the fight they fought is won, though 

they lie in a far-olf grave, , 

Their souls come back to the land they loved — the 

land that they left to save. 

And so, through the damp of the sorry sea, through 

the wreck of the shell-torn plain. 
They are coming back to homes they loved — they 

are coming back again ! 
And light as the wind that sways in the wheat, or 

the dust on the broad highway, 
They march to their rendezvous with the ones who 

died in the yesterday. 



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SHADOWS 

You come to me at twilight, when the others, 

Are laughing in the fullness of their joy; 
When glad-eyed women folk, when wives and mothers. 

Are welcoming some other bronze-cheeked boy. 
You come to me, all silent, in the gloaming, 

A shadow form, with curly shadow hair — 
And, dear, I somehow feel that you are roaming 

Between two shadow worlds — the Here and There. 

They ask me, do those others, why I wander 
Down dewy lanes, alone, at eventide — 

They do not know my heart's a shadow — yonder. . . 
They do not know that part of me has died. 

They do not know that your dear presence stands 

Just out of reach with misty, wide-flung hands ! 



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L'ENVOI 

Only we two, dear . . . and the candlelight. 
Seems to be softer than it was before, 
Country and city, vivid dream lands, war — 

Dear, they are very far from ns to-night ! 

Woven of promise from life's golden loom, 

Pale threads of light have bound us heart to heart ; 
Laughter and sorrow — they are things apart — 

All of our world is in this little room. 

Outside the branches sway, and winter weather 
Sweeps, with a cry of triumph, through the land 
Dear, it is springtime, when you touch my hand — 

Only we two, and magic, here together ! 



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